I Hate You A Little Less Today

Chapter 8

Not even a day had passed and chaos erupted, more soldiers were being asked to go attend...something...

All I heard was that something happened in Trost, apparently a big colossal titan had attacked soldiers from the Garrison Regiment. But what the fuck would I know.

I just hoped Hange and Jorgie weren't involved in that, I just hoped they were safe.

The days were long and boring, I got a lot of my reports done, I did a lot of work and was very pleased with how tranquil the air was when Levi wasn't around.

But by day four, I had realized that whatever happened that caused more soldiers to be called to fight, must have been important because the scouts didn't come back at the time that they said they'd be back.

In fact, they didn't come back until a week later after that.

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I woke up to some loud knocking on my door. I got up and opened the door slightly to see who it was.

As soon as I creaked the door slightly, it swung open with brute force. I jumped back.

"Y/N!" Suddenly a familiar voice enthusiastically screeched.

It was Hange.

My eyes widened in excitement and I jumped on her to give her a hug.

"Hange! Finally! Finally finally finally!" I squeezed her and she squeezed me back.

"We arrived this morning, I couldn't wait to come see you" She cupped my face with her two hands.

"I was so worried, I've heard so many things about-"

"So much happened, I can't wait to tell you everything you won't believe it, I mean first of all we caught some titans, but that's not the craziest news of all, we caught a kid who can turn into a titan and..."

Hange told me everything. How they were mid-expedition when a titan called the Colossal Titan attacked Trost, the scouts were called when everything had already calmed down. But then she told me about a boy named Eren Jeager, who seemingly can turn into a Titan, and who was going to be trialed to see if he could come to the grounds to become a member of the scouts.

It was a long story. With every twist and turn I just...I couldn't believe that they had all gone through so much. I was selfishly glad that the scouts hadn't been there in Trost when the titans attacked at first. But the thought was selfish. Hundreds of Garrison Regiment soldiers had died.

I listened to everything. Completely emerged in every single word that came out of Hange's mouth.

For a second I couldn't believe just how much I cared about her, about the scouts, about...

"Wh-where's the rest of the scouts, did everyone make it?" I interrupted he while she was talking about the captured titans.

"Unfortunately we did have some casualties..." She looked down, clearly upset.

"Do you know if...Jorgie made it back" I looked into her eyes, my heart was beating fast.

Hange looked up slowly, and place her hand on my shoulder.

She looked into my eyes, with a sad look on her face, she took a step forward, not breaking eye contact.

My heart was beating out of my chest, I could feel my eyes start to water. Hange was about to give me bad news wasn't she.

She froze for a second. She closed her eyes. Suddenly her head fell back and she let out a very loud laugh.

"Wha-what?! Hange what the fuck are you laughing at?!" I pushed her away, drying my ready eyes with my shirt.

"You should have seen your face! You were so worried, don't worry your boyfriend is alive, I saw him on the way back" She continued laughing so much she started choking and coughing.

"That's what you get" I let out a small laugh in between my tears.

We both got ready for breakfast, I hoped to finally see everyone back in the dinning hall. I was incredibly excited.

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Me and Hange walked in, the hall was roaring with noise. I missed the noise. I scanned the whole place looking for familiar faces.

"Y/N!" I heard Cadet Otto call me. I ran to his table and hugged him, I saw other familiar faces and started giving everyone big hugs.

I was so happy to see everyone back. Alive.

I turned to another table and greeted the familiar faces in that table aswell. I kept scanning the rows of tables until I finally saw him.

I sneaked behind Jorgie, and gave him a big hug from behind. He grabbed me with one hand and pulled me next to him, giving me an even tighter hug. We exchanged a few words, he told me he missed me and I told him I was so happy to see him again.

Hange yelled at me across the room, "Y/N! You better come sit with me!"

I told Jorgie I'd see him later and I walked over to Hange's table.

Hange was sitting in a far apart table with Commander Erwin, four people I didn't recognize and...

Levi.

Seeing him for the first time in so long made me remember everything that had happened prior to their departure. I had almost the pleasure of blocking him out of my memory completely.

"Commander Erwin! I'm so happy you're all back" I smiled sweetly at him.

Erwin smiled at me back.

"It seems like you have acquainted yourself to many people here, it's very sweet of you to have been so worried about so many scouts" His blue eyes were gently placed on me, almost lovingly, showing sincerity.

"There wasn't a minute I wasn't thinking about the scouts, everything was so hectic here, after those who stayed heard about what was happening in Trost" I said while tensing up slightly.

"Tsk" I hear a noise come from the end of the table. I turned to see Levi rolling his eyes at what I had just said.

My first instinct was to tense up considering that I was being genuine and sincere with Commander Erwin. I was about to get upset...but then I realized why Levi would be upset with my current behavior.

I relaxed my body.

The last thing that Levi heard from me was me saying that if he laid a hand on me I would ruin the scouts, I knew that he most likely thought that me worrying about the scouts was some sort of act.

I understood.

I ignored him and continued to talk to Erwin and Hange, completely avoiding eye contact with him. Completely ignoring him. Completely blocking him out of my mind.

The rest of the day I spent it with Jorgie and his friends. Everyone seemed to be talking a lot about the future of the scouts, and what having the boy Eren Yeager join would be like.