I Hate You A Little Less Today

Chapter 28

~Author's Note: Hi to anyone who is still reading this! :)) I just redownloaded the app and with the new season airing I thought id give this story another go. This is a short chapter I had written before deciding to go on hiatus, but I suppose ill publish it to let everyone know that I will be updating this story now :) Thank you for your support!~

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Holding him again felt like a dream.

Levi was a strong man, yet whenever I hugged him he felt so gentle and fragile, I always felt like I always hugged him with more strength, I figure maybe he wasn't used to holding people that often.

That day...when the female titan was inside of Mitras...several things happened.

Firstly, as I reconnected with Levi, I realized what must have happened to all the housekeepers. As I stood on top of the ruined house I felt my heart drop, realizing that there was no way any of them made it out alive.

Later Levi left for a period of time, he had to recoup with the scouts. I helped my neighbors and people on the street, trying to make myself useful amongst all the destruction. I helped a family get their son out of some debris, luckily he was able to make it out with almost no injuries.

I helped anywhere I could.

As I walked through rubble and dust I remembered suddenly where my father had been this whole time. I looked over to the other side of the city, thinking about how much worst that side got affected by the titan. I saw her punch through buildings and take down whole streets while fighting with Eren. My heart ached at the thought that my father could have gotten tangled in between that.

The moment I remembered where my father was I made it a priority to see if he was ok.

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Unfortunately, as the city tried to calm down, as the hours passed, my father was nowhere to be seen.

My soul ached, terrified of what this could mean. I didn't even have anywhere to stay, my whole house was in the ground. Everything I knew was shattered.

Levi came back to check up on me, I sat in front of the river, things started to calm down.

I sat on a bench, overseeing the city. Levi landed close to me and walked over slowly.

"We still haven't found him" Levi sat down next to me, not making eye contact with me.

I didn't say anything, I just stared blankly at the cityscape as the sun went down.

"We didn't plan for any of this, the female titan-"

"It's not your fault" I interrupted him before he continued. I couldn't bear to have Levi blaming himself for any of this.

I knew that Levi always took casualties to heart, even though he always acted like he didn't care. He cared deeply, about every person around him.

We both sat in silence for a bit.

"I don't want you to leave me again" My throat closed up as the words came out of my mouth. "It is selfish of you to push me away. I did nothing but think about you while you were gone"

Levi turned to me, I felt his blue eyes on me as he said nothing.

I continued, "I thought I was going to die today, and as I prepared to be crushed in that house, all I could think about was; I should have tried harder, I should have never allowed him to leave, I should have told him that I loved him while I had the chance"

I turned to look at him, our eyes met. His lips were pressed together, his expression was unfamiliar. I felt like the words I had just said perhaps were too direct for him, he seemed to have fallen victim to an emotion he must have never felt before. I couldn't tell if his eyes were watery, or if they were just shiny from the hazy sunset. He didn't move, it seemed like he couldn't. He was as rigid and frozen as a statue, a beautiful statue. Disheveled from all the action that occurred today, some blood on his shirt.

I couldn't help but tear up at the sight, was I really the first person to tell him that I loved him? At that moment I wanted to hold him, kiss him, become one with him, but I too was frozen, frozen by all the thoughts I had all at once, having him right in front of me again. It felt like a dream to have him here right now, it felt unreal, everything.

I leaned over, and gently placed my forehead against his.

"I'm sorry if that was a bit much" I whispered.

As if responding, he smacked his lips into mine, a desperate kiss was enough for me to understand his thoughts on what I had just said.

Perhaps he loved me too.

The thought sent shivers down my spine, I broke his kiss and immediately wept. Emotion took over me.

He brought me to his arms slowly, rubbing my back gently.

He remained quiet.

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