I Hate You A Little Less Today

Chapter 26

I opened my eyes to birds chirping outside of my window. For a few seconds I laid comfortably, feeling the soft sheets against my skin.

Suddenly I jumped up, remembering what day it was. Today Levi was meant to leave.

I didn't even know how I got to my bed last night, or why nobody woke me up. I was absolutely exhausted from all the emotions I felt yesterday. I put on a robe quickly and barged out of my room.

I quickly ran towards Levi's room, I opened the door and my heart sunk. The whole room was neatly organized, none of his stuff were in it, the bed was tucked.

I started running down the stairs, "Levi?!"

My father was by the main entrance, he turned to me.

"Father? Where's Levi?" I ran up to him.

He looked down at me and sighed deeply.

I furrowed my brows, I looked at him confused while holding myself.

"He left earlier...he said he had said his goodbyes to you yesterday...correct?" My father seemed confused as well.

My heart instantly dropped.

"H-he's gone?" My throat started to close up.

There was a pause.

"He said he didn't want to wake you up"

I ran pass him and walked outside. Gone.

How could he do this.

"Why would you-" I said into the air.

I walked back inside.

"Y/N? What's going on? He said you knew he would leave early...did he not-"

"He left without saying goodbye" My voice completely broke.

I walked upstairs aggressively, my father seemed incredibly confused.

I walked into my room and closed the door behind me. Immediately I fell on the floor and started sobbing.

How could he do this to me? How could he not wake me up yesterday, how could he leave earlier? Why would he leave me this way?

No matter what way I looked a it, it was extremely hurtful. I couldn't believe that this is how it all was meant to end. Not even a goodbye. Not even a final kiss.

All the anger I felt for him when we first met suddenly came rushing back.

I was drowning in heartbreak, my emotions felt so overwhelming that I could have thrown up from crying so hard.

I cried...

And cried...

Morning turned into noon...

Noon turned into night...

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I cried...

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Suddenly days had passed. Time was a blur. I was eating thanks to my father, he didn't inquire much further about the situation with... But he helped as much as he could, seeing how upset I was.

I cried a bunch. Perhaps a week had passed by, all I did was cry and then feel numb, and then cry again.

I wasn't even able to complete a thought without thinking of him. How can a man have had so much impact on me, how can a person make me feel so weak.