You're All I Need《Nikki Sixx || Mötley Crüe || The Dirt》

{Deleted Scenes: Accidents (Part 2) }

⚠️Warning: Chapter contains scenes depicting trauma, depression, drug relapse and mentions of loss and suicidal thoughts. If affected, please read with caution.⚠️

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*Mallory*

Weeks passed...

I needed another surgery for my leg and after that it wasn't long until I was finally able to come home.

However, I was confined to a wheelchair for a few months and had to be in physical therapy for the time as well.

I have a chance to walk again, but it will take a lot of time until I can fully walk fine, and I also have some nerve damage in my arm.

I was also prescribed some medication antibiotics for the pain and to prevent any possible infections.

I didn't want to take any of that, though.

I didn't want to eat or drink. I didn't want to sleep. I didn't want to even go outside.

I want to die...... I should have died......

I've lost children before, but this..... This is much worse than when I lost my other children...

I was fine... The baby was fine... He actually had a chance like his brothers and sisters, everything was okay.....

I had hope... Now I'm starting to realize how dangerous having that is ...

A miscarriage because of my genetics would have been less painful than this..... We would have healed from that....

This, though... I don't think there could ever be healing from this agony....

Now, because of some bastards this time, I not only lost another son, but I also the chance of even thinking of one more kid, if it were ever possible.

My son.... He was murdered..... Killed just when he had a chance...... All because of greed.....

Nikki and I were obviously going to stop after having Rowan, for sure, but.... That choice was ripped away from us along with him.....

This hurts so, so much.....

I sighed as I then looked over at the TV.

"In court today, the 3 remaining bank robbers who lead the LAPD on a speed chase from a Wells Fargo bank that ended in tragedy," the anchorman said.  "The four men sped for 5 blocks before arriving to the intersection of 64th ST and Sunset Blvd on Friday the 8th, where they ran a red light at the intersection and collided with three different cars. Of the 9 people who were affected in the crash, only 3 were killed, one being one of the robbers, and 4 others were in critical condition, while 2 others only suffered  minor injuries....."

I glared at the screen as they displayed the mugshots of the robbers.

I hope that bastard friend of theirs who died is burning in hell right now....

I sniffled as I continued to watch. Footage of the scene from that day was now being shown, including of my now destroyed car, bent around the telephone pole, almost ripped in half.

Another car was practically flattened because of my car flipping over it when impacted, its dead driver laying next to it covered by a sheet.

More destroyed cars. Broken metal, car fluids and glass shards all over the asphalt, along with enough blood spilled everywhere to make a butcher faint.

Another body, the pedestrian who was a young college student, laid on the sidewalk in her own blood, also covered by a sheet. The critically injured being loaded into helicopters and ambulances, ambulances also taking the ones with minor injuries.