You're All I Need《Nikki Sixx || Mötley Crüe || The Dirt》

{Deleted Scenes: Seeing Double}

《1998》

*Mallory*

I sighed as I turned around, looking at the mirror, my hand over my bump.

"You're fine... It's probably nothing serious...." I told myself.

Things have gone well as of lately.

The band had started working on their new album, which they are still thinking up a name for it, but I decided to challenge Nikki for this album.

So far, every Crüe album has at least one song Nikki has written and dedicated to me (Generation Swine practically has 5 songs dedicated to me, including the Rocketship song Nikki wrote for me and Jasper!). So, I challenged him for this next one to not include one

Don't get me wrong, I love every song Nikki has written for me, and will cherish them all for the rest of my natural days. However, I want to see him exapnd his inspiration further, see whatore he can come up with.

He thinks it'll be hard, but I know he can do it.

Our kids have also been doing well.

Jasper and Zander were excited when Ava was born. Jasper has proven to be a little more protective of his baby sister, even helping me feed her and getting her dressed, as well as walking her in her stroller around the garden in our backyard, Jack accompanying them most days.

Not very long after Ava was born, Tommy and Pamela's second son, Dylan, was born. I was appointed as his godmother. He's a sweet, beautiful little boy who looks like Tommy as well, but has a lot of softer features from Pamela.

A year after Ava was born, Nikki and I decided to overcome our fears together and this time plan and try for another child. It wasn't long until I was pregnant again and things look to be going prettywell

Life was great until just recently, however, when Tommy and Pamela hit a seriously rough patch, and that's just putting it lightly.

One thing lead to another, and Tommy was arrested during a serious fight, and is now going to be serving time in jail for a few months, and he and Pamela also had a nasty divorce as well.

I was angry with both of them since they had also gotten the boys involved in their problems, and its lead to a lot of stress and turmoil regarding not only their sons but the band as well.

Considering all the chaos, Brandon and Dylan were staying with me and Nikki until things calm down. Thankfully, Sharise has been helping me with the kids so it hasn't been stressful.

With a tour coming up, however, Mötley Crüe needed a drummer and recruited for the meantime a female drummer, Samantha Maloney.

She'll be with us until Tommy comes back, which might be a month after my baby's born.

On top of all of that, there's also one thing I've noticed throughout my pregnancy so far that's had me worried.

Despite being 4 months pregnant, almost 5,and no red flags so far, my bump is a little  bigger than usual.

On top of that, I feel more exhausted, hungry, and I feel way more movement than I felt with Jasper, Ava, or even Zander, and Zander was restless 24/7.

I don't feel anything wrong, but I want to make sure nothing is wrong with my baby, so I scheduled an early appointment with Dr. Langdon to see what's going on. Yesterday I had gone after work and got some bloodwork done, today we'll find out on the ultrasound if the baby is fine.

Nikki and I were working to prepare ourselves in the case that I end up miscarrying, but I am really hoping it doesn't happen.

Jasper, Zander and Ava may have turned out fine, but I don't want to get my hopes up.