You're All I Need《Nikki Sixx || Mötley Crüe || The Dirt》

{Chapter Ninety-Three}

*Mallory*

It wasn't long until we were all finally able to go home.

I was still on bedrest until my stitches fully healed, but was allowed to walk around only a little bit. Jasper was also thankfully healthy and well, and very curious about the world around him.

When it came to the media, Nikki and I had made the decision to keep Jasper away from it completely. If we ever wanted pictures or videos of him released to the public that it would be on our terms and our terms only.

Lexie, Ceci and Tom were all also staying over to help us take care of Jasper for a while. Once I'm able to go back to work and Nikki has to tour, Ceci and Tom were gonna come back to stay with us a few months to help around.

Considering he's still very little, Nikki and I decided to wait until Jasper is more or less a year old before we finally take him on any
tour.

Ceci and Lexie were out running some errands while Tom was taking a nap in the guest room.

I rested on the couch, breast feeding Jasper as Nikki was fixing up a song near me with a guitar on his lap, Jack watching over me and Jasper like a hawk.

Ever since Jack first met Jasper, he's practically been glued to our side, even staying close to Jasper's crib at night, and alerting us if he's even moving at all.

In other words, Jack has woken us up more than Jasper has at this point....

I watched as my son suckled softly from me, relaxed in my arms. His tiny fist clung to my shirt.

To think... Had the universe been against us... Had Jasper not made it like Razzle Jr. or Angel...... I most likely would have been sitting here, mourning the loss of another child, all the grief and pain making me think God only knows what....

Yet here we are.... The last bit of hope I thought I was going to lose ended up making it into my arms and making me feel whole...

Words can't begin to describe how grateful  and happy I am for these little seven pounds I had bled and cried for, who was able to bring into this world despite everything.

My thoughts were pulled as I felt Jasper struggle closer to me and laughed softly.

"Your son acts like we don't feed him enough," I chuckled softly as I looked down at Jasper, who hungrily ate, getting as much milk as we could. "He has a big appetite."

Nikki looked up from the paper, his glasses on.

He doesn't think so, but I think he looks cute in his glasses. Hehe.

"Or he's into boobs like his old man is," he smirked jokingly.

I scoffed and gave him a look. "Real charming, Nikki," I said as he gave me a cheeky grin.

I rolled my eyes with a small smirk as I watched Nikki pondering a bit. 

"What are you brainstorming over there?" I asked curiously.

He chuckled as he looked back up at me.

"Its a song I was working on for a while now," he said. "The rhythm and melody for it are set but I've been kind of working on the lyrics a bit. Its a short song, but I think it'll work for this next album."

"Is it ready?" I asked him as Jasper then pulled away, meaning he was done eating.

He looked over the sheet before he snapped his fingers and quickly jotted something down.

"It is now," he smiled as I pulled my shirt back up and cleaned Jasper up before resting him over my shoulder to burp him. 

"That's great, babe," I smiled at him. "Think we can hear it?"