You're All I Need《Nikki Sixx || Mötley Crüe || The Dirt》

{Chapter Fifty-Sixx}

*Mallory*

I sighed as I woke up, the sun faintly shining through the window.

I opened my eyes before feeling arms around my waist and a warm chest against my back.

I slowly turn around and I'm met with Sebastian's sleeping face.

He's a heavy sleeper, so he always looked so peaceful and relaxed when asleep.

On top of that, he's a cute sleeper. Even his snores were cute. Hehe.

I smiled as I watch him sleep and then sighed.

What am I going to do?

Should I really take this opportunity? Should I go to London, start the life I was meant to when I was with Razzle?

Only difference is... I'll be on my own...

No Crüe, no Skid Row, no Sharise or Heather or Skylar....

.... No Nikki....

I sighed as I rolled over, softly gliding my fingers over Sebastian's cheek.

I can't hurt Sebastian like this, either. Its not fair to him.

He's so kind and caring, and I should be grateful that after everything he's in my life.

He could have avoided me like the plague, given my history before rehab and all, but yet here he is, a heart of gold, giving me his love and everything.

But he's not Nikki...

I whined softly before burying my face into his chest, curling up into him.

Why can't my brain just shut up?

Seb groaned softly as I felt him wake up, and then his arms wrapped around me.

"Hey, baby...." he mumbled sleepily kissing the top of my head. "You okay?"

I sighed as I looked up at him.

"I don't know..." I admitted.

"You want to talk about it?" He asked as he gently stroked my hair.

I sighed. "I... I don't even know where to start..." I said.

He stroked my hair as I looked at him.

"Do you want me to make us some breakfast and we can talk about it?" He asked.

I smiled softly at him, knowing he was trying to make me feel better.

"Okay," I nodded.

He smiled and softly kissed me before standing up, pulling on a pair of sweatpants and stretching as I sat up.

"I'll make you your favorite,"he smiled.

I smiled as he stepped out, then sighed.

He's so sweet.... What did I ever do to deserve someone like him?

"Maybe he's not the bad guy after all... Maybe its you.... Maybe it always was you.... Maybe it always will be..."

I frowned as those words from years ago suddenly echoed in my head.

Damn you straight to Hell, Paul....

I sighed and laid back as I held back tears.

Maybe I should go to London... Start over like I should have when I was planning to leave to New York... A complete start over...

I mean, I'll probably see the guys from Mötley of Skid Row from time to time 

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