You're All I Need《Nikki Sixx || Mötley Crüe || The Dirt》

{Chapter Fifty}

⚠️Warning: mentions of domestic abuse/assault around the beginning⚠️

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*Mallory*

I can't remember how long we laid there, side by side, looking at the ceiling.

I think its late at night now... I'm not sure....

It was after some tears that we just laid there coming down from our highs, not saying anything.

After some silence, I decided it was time....

It's time I tell him what I should have told him a long time ago...

"Before I came to Los Angeles... Before I ran away..... I was expected to marry some son of a business partner of my father's," I confessed.

Nikki looked over at me, the pupils of his blue-green eyes still big, but not as massive as before.

"Nothing arranged exactly, but still expected out of both of us.... Aside from that, though... We got along, and... I was starting to like him...." I said. "But then... Then the drinking got heavy, and the cheating was ridiculous, pretty much anything with legs and a set of boobs."

He was quiet as he turned on his side, listening.

"One day I confronted him about it, telling him I was going to leave.... He started to slap me.... The slaps turned to punches.... the punches turned to head slams against the ground..... Kicks hard enough to break my ribs... I could swear he even grabbed a paperweight from his desk..... I can't remember much after that, since I woke up from that coma a month later," I said.

His eyes widen in shock as I lifted my hair, revealing the scar from the surgery.

"Oh fuck... Its worse up close..." he murmured as I put my hair down.

"20 hours on the operating table, 8 of the best neurosurgeons in the country just to stop the massive bleeding and swelling in my brain, practically to put my head back together..... I even flatlined once...... I was put into a medically induced coma afterwards in order to heal properly, until I learned how to breathed on my own... But even after all of that, there wasn't much hope..." I said.

"Oh my god..." he said in shock.

"Doctors said it was a miracle I even survived... A miracle I was even able to talk and soon walk without any problems," I said. "At the time, it also like the first time my parents somewhat cared about me and not anything academic or monetary wise...." I said. "My dad didnt visit me, though... My mom only visited once or twice... Doctors started losing hope and were already deciding to pull the plug before I managed to start finally breathing on my own.... Said it was a miracle im not even a vegetable after everything."

Nikki was quiet before he spoke.

"Thats why you were scared to face me... Why you couldn't forgive me," he mumbled.

"It wasnt you I was scared of.... I was scared of the idea that something so perfect ended up hurting me again, just like before...." I confessed. "I never expected Donovan to hurt me like that, he was a kind man at first.... And yet, in the end, he did..."

He frowned and looked down.

"After cheating, I was hurt more by the fact that... That it was like he still had a hold on me or something " I sighed. "Like he was hurting me all over again...."

He turned over on his side and looked at me, his arm around my torso.

"He can't hurt you anymore... And I promise, I never will again," he said.