You're All I Need《Nikki Sixx || Mötley Crüe || The Dirt》

{Chapter Fifty-Eight}

⚠️Warning: Mentions of drug abuse and attempted suicide in this chapter⚠️

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*Mallory*

"So.... its over...." Sebastian asked, sadly.

I sniffled and nodded.

I drove to Mick's place and we talked about it, and I decided on what needed to be done.

The next day I drove to Sebastian's house.

It wouldn't be fair to him to involve him in anymore problems, and a long distance relationship would be too much to handle. It's best to just end it and save us both any trouble.

"Its just not fair if I pull you into the mess that's my life, even from the start I was scared for you.... Yet you actually gave me your love, despite all you've heard and what you knew..." I said.

"Well, because I never gave a shit what other people said about you," He said. "All the drugs you did, all those guys you slept it, that was back then, Mallory. You got clean, you got healthy and turned a new leaf.... The past means nothing to me. "

I sighed and looked down. "Dating me did cost me your reputation a bit," I sighed.

"Like I give a damn, Mallory, like I said, I don't care what others thought when you and I started dating. I love you, and that's all that matters."

"And I love you, too, Seb," I whimpered, holding his hands. "And that's why I can't just.... You deserve better.... You always did....."

"And you don't?" he frowned.

I sighed as I wiped my tears as he sighed.

"Look.... If you want me to walk, I will," he said, holding my hands. "But don't have me walk away just because you think you don't deserve even an ounce of happiness, o-or because you're scared after hitting a bump in the road or because you feel you aren't good enough.."

I let out a shaky breath as some tears fell, having him move to kneel in front of me and wiped my tears away.

"Mallory, you are good enough, no matter what you think or anyone else thinks," he said.

I sighed and looked up at his eyes.

"You're too good to me," she said. "And I am so grateful to you, and your love and kindness, and just helping me feel whole again after everything......"

Sebastian looked over at me as he softly rubbed my arms. 

"But even if we stay together, you know this is going to be hard on both of us," I said. "I can't force you to move to London, o-or travelling back and forth when you aren't touring, it'll be hell, and it won't be fair to Skid Row and your fans, you know that....."

He frowned and looked down.

"I don't want this to end, I really don't," I said, feeling more tears. "You're that ray of sunshine I thought I was never going to find once I left rehab... But I have think about what's best for you, and everyone...."

He sighed, his eyes getting watery.

I cried as I looked down and he pulled me into his arms, holding me against his chest.

I sighed as I took in his scent.

His cologne... It reminded me of pine trees for some reason..... It calmed me a little bit....

You know what you really need to calm down....

I whimpered and clung to him as he held me, rubbing my back.