Chapter 43: Mattie Sinclair

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⚠ Derogatory term

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⚠ Derogatory term

Although it seemed as though JJ was sleeping, he wasn't. His mind was keeping him up as thoughts of a boy, no not the one sleeping beside him, plagued his mind.

He knew it was so incredibly wrong to think of another when the one you cared for was right beside you, but JJ was conflicted.

He hasn't felt what he feels for Louis in a year and he most certainly wasn't planning on ever having such feelings with another boy.

For Mattie Sinclair was many things and being apart of JJ's past was one of them.

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It was the summer of 2018. The pogues officially finished their sophomore year of highschool and a party was in order.

JJ's only reputation was that of stealing. Many girls would look the other direction when he would walk the halls or say a hello.

He was never one to sleep around, the idea honestly disgusted him. For he had his own friends, John B, Pope, and Mattie. He always thought John B to be a brother, and with Big John gone most nights either up in his office or on the sea, the Château became a second home to him, and a brotherly bond formed soon after.

Pope was always what he considered a 'mom' to the group. Always looking out when John B wanted to do something reckless. Making sure JJ didn't overly drink at a party. Watching over Matt when his anxiety became too much to handle. Pope had a sarcastic but motherly touch to him.

Mattie, well Mattie to JJ was many things. A lab partner during biology. A tutor for math. A supporter during his stealings. A friend in the daylight. A crush when it was dark. Mattie was many things to JJ, as JJ was many things to Mattie.

Mattie loved JJ. Not the puppy love which shatters in months, not the marriage love that leads in arguments. Honeymoon love. The love that feels a heart so incredibly fast it seems unrealistic. The love seen in movies and Disney. The love where there are princesses waiting for their prince...

Mattie loved JJ but in so many ways he couldn't show it. Because love was like Barbie and Ken. Love was like Rapunzul and Flynn. Love was like Snow White and Prince Charming.

Love was with a woman and a man, and even with it being the 21st century, even with same sex marriage being legal, society still had royalists who saw it as wrong. Society still had queens who must marry kings. Society still made the prince's search for a princess and not another prince. For it was legal, but in almost every way possibly society tried to hide its existence.

For Mattie loved JJ, and JJ liked Mattie but as fate seemed, it wouldn't be meant to be.

As the night begin to show and the high schoolers first night of summer began, the keggar started and would have a devastating end.

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