My Sun - JJ Maybank

Chapter 68: Mistakes Always Come Back

When JJ finally came to his senses he became quiet. He was still in Mattie home, yet he had a different emotion pick at his heart. He now knew it was Mattie that he kissed and his heart broke at just the thought.

JJ hated himself for how it took merely hours to move on from Louis. Only hours to go to a rebound. That was all Mattie was to JJ, and that thought hurt as well. Someone JJ was once so close to being nothing more than a person to kiss when times get tough.

JJ hated himself.

He kissed someone that wasn't Louis, he was playing with Mattie's feelings. JJ was a terrible person. He knew he had to be for doing such things without a second thought.

JJ was now sitting on a toilet while Mattie worked on cleaning his scrapes and cuts from the abuse of his father. No words were said but it was quite clear to both of the boys that the kiss was a mistake.

"Jesus Jack, I hate you dad so fucking much. He is a real bitch you know that." Mattie mumbles when his eyes catch sight of a yellowish almost purple bruise.

"You and me both." JJ mumbles.

Both could feel the tension in the room.

"Look Jack-"

"-lets just not talk about it okay. I was just a time of weakness for me."

"Jack..."

"I said lets not talk about it!" JJ scoffs out, anger building inside him again.

"I was just going to say that I'm done, you can put a shirt on again" Mattie says.

JJ looks down at his chest and sighs when he see's the countless bruises forming. He hated them, they were ugly and painful and from abuse he didn't deserve. 

Atleast he didn't think he deserved it.

"Oh... thanks." JJ mumbles before grabbing his shirt and pulling it over his body again.

The room is quiet once more and JJ feels like he may be able to suffocate from the tension around them.

"Look Matt, I shouldn't of shown up here... I don't know why I did... it just happened. Sorry for burdening you but I should go." JJ mumbles before walking past Mattie and down the stairs of the house.

"Jack.. Jack wait. Please just wait!" Mattie yells running after the blonde.

"Matt..."

"Please Jack... just... I'm sorry too. For everything. For last year, for today. You were right, I shouldn't of done anything while you weren't sober. I shouldn't of done anything today while you were mentally not there. I'm sorry. I just want to be friends again... okay, please?" Mattie practically begs.

JJ thinks for a long moment. The pain he caused both of them for pushing eachother away, the friendship they had before anything went wrong. They were bestfriends, surely they could just be that again.

"Okay."

"Okay?" Mattie repeats.

"Yeah, friends." JJ says, extending his hand to shake.

Mattie returns the handshake and smiles. This was a step in the right direction, first friends, then lovers. It will just take some time, but for JJ, Mattie would wait forever.

JJ leaves after that, doing something he shouldn't do but does anyways.

Louis was still sitting in the treehouse wondering what to do. He couldn't go home heartbroken, Henry would probably just give a stupid remark about how if he didn't date a boy he wouldn't be hurt. He couldn't go to the pogues though since there was still a possibility of JJ being there.