My Sun - JJ Maybank

Chapter 76: Final Goodbyes

Louis and Leo left the pogues once the sirens were sounding.

Leo still had no clue what happened but he could tell from the pure pain in Louis voice that it wasn't good.

They made it home silently... When they entered the house was quiet. Far too quiet.

"Anne? Anne!?" Leo yells, looking for the motherly figure in their lives.

The house was silent and Louis wants to collapse when he sees the living room. He was just in there mere hours ago being comforted by Henry. His life was normal just two days ago and now he lost JJ, Henry and now possibly Anne.

"Louis. Can you please tell me what happened? We need that blood off you and I need to know you are okay." Leo pleads, basically supporting his older brother in walking up the stairs.

When the boys making upstairs Leo helps Louis to the bathroom and sets his brother on the toilet, before grabbing some soap and a rag to help clean the dried blood.

"I- I saw it happened. It ju-just happened so fast..."

"What did? Frére talk to me!" Leo finally yells, getting frustrated and concerned for not knowing what happened.

"Dad is dead... he- he was murderer." Louis mumbles out, crying once more and looking Leo in the eyes.

"Wh-what?"

"I saw it.... I tried to stop it... I tried but I couldn't."

"Papa's dead?" 

"I'm sorry Leo... I tried. I did. I promise" Louis mumbles out, grabbing the rag and beginning to take the blood off himself.

Leo doesn't say anything, but Louis can hear his sniffles and see the few tears that fall down his cheeks. Leo leaves after that, slamming his bedroom door so loud it shakes the house.

Louis sighs and scrubs at his arms and hands once more. He was being rough with his skin but he didn't care. He just needed it off and he needed it off now.

Louis didn't know where Anne was but he assumed that the police would call her first, Henry was he husband after all.

After attempting to get the blood off his hands he stands up, anger building inside him. Louis finally decides to just take a shower, hoping maybe that will get the blood out, which it does thankfully. When Louis is finished taking a shower he changes into a fresh pair of clothes and throws away the ones he was previously wearing. He couldn't wear them again. Not with the stains.

It is dark when Louis exits the bathroom, and still no sign of Anne.

Louis walks down to the kitchen and goes through the pantry. History was repeating itself again.

Three months ago Louis was doing this exact thing in his house back in France. Grieving the lost of a parent, trying to not break infront of his younger brother, helping support his family.

Once Louis finished making a sandwich for Leo (Louis didn't make one for himself, he was sure if he ate anything he would just throw it all up) he headed upstairs and knocked on his brothers door.

"Leo.. I know you aren't in the mood to see me... or anyone but I made some food. I'll leave it by your door... I um.. I'm going to bed. If you need anything my room is always open... Love you" Louis says before setting the food down and walking down the hall to his room.

It isn't until Louis hits his mattress that he allows himself to break down completely. The tears escape his eyes without permission. His body shakes on its own account. His hands scratch at his arms, drawing blood eventually.

Henry was gone. Dead. There was nothing Louis or Leo or anyone could do. 

Henry was dead and that was on Louis.

When morning arrived, Louis still had his eyes open and tears falling on his cheeks. He didn't sleep at all, he didn't want his nightmares to repeat what he witnessed.

The morning was bright, and Louis wanted to course the sun for shining, for today wasn't a happy day.

But Louis got out of bed. He had to. Louis wasn't the only person he needed to take care of, he had his brother. If Louis were alone he would grieve and never take care of himself. But he had Leo, he couldn't let Leo suffer anymore.

When Louis left his room he sighed seeing that Leo's door was still open but felt some sense of hope when he saw that the food was no longer by the door, meaning Leo must of had some of it.

Louis walks downstairs and makes food for Leo once more. Louis still couldn't eat, he didn't trust himself too, before doing the same routine he did lastnight. Telling his brother he loved him, putting the food down, than locking himself in his room.

Louis was so tired of pain. So tired of all this shit that happened in his life. He didn't deserve this.

And so, with a rage building inside of Louis, Louis grabbed his house keys, told his brother he would be back later, and left his house on a mission.

Louis knew it was a long shot for JJ to be at his dads, but Louis didn't give a damn. He followed the same path to the treehouse than kept going when to saw the house in the distance. 

Louis felt some sense of relief when he saw Kie's car sitting out from of the blondes house, meaning JJ was probably there. He gave Kie the smallest of waves than put on a straight face when he saw the blonde exiting his house with a key in hand and Mattie following behind him.

"JJ!" Louis yells, grabbing the blonde and not even caring that Mattie was there.

"Louis?"

Louis doesn't saw anything but slaps JJ in the face. Mattie goes to move towards JJ but JJ gives a glare Mattie's way, indicating to Mattie that he got this. Mattie didn't listen though and grabbed JJ's hand in a protective manor. Something Louis saw and pissed him off more.

"Screw you JJ. You are a real piece of shit. I don't know what shit could possibly be happening in your life to make you treat people like this but screw you. I don't deserve any of this shit you did to me and I deserve better. You are just an ass. I want you to know that I never... ever want you near me again."

"Woah! Louis chill out." Mattie says, pulling the blonde behind him, causing JJ to get even more furious. JJ could fight his own battles, he didn't need Mattie too.

"and you! Fuck you Mattie. You know, I really hope you treat JJ right, I really hope you do, because I guess I didn't. I really hope you do because if you don't, I may hate JJ but I still will punch you if you don't."

"Mikey-"

"No JJ. I am done. I just needed you to know how honest I was when I said I hate you" Louis says before walking away.

Louis didn't feel any better getting everything off his chest, hell it maybe even hurt Louis more, especially to see Mattie by JJ's side, but Louis needed them to know he was done.

In a way that was Louis final goodbye to the pogues. Louis was moving on because JJ did so why shouldn't he?

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I hate this chapter. It is so bad....

Umm anyways Louis still doesn't know that John B was accused of murder. Also I think this book has like 3 chapters left.

one with louis finding out about John B being accused, the second being john b's 'death' than the epilogue.

ALSO someone convince me to go to school. This is my third day skipping. My mental health just isn't good guys but man, because of that my grades are slipping.

So excited for book 2 though, when I tell you jealous JJ is coming... ohhh man!

-Willie