⚠ Mentions of blood
"He is the reason Leo and I have no mother!" Louis yells out again, now digging his nails into the palm of his hands creating crescent shapes.
Louis looks to his brother quickly and let's out a sigh when he sees that Leo is looking at his hands which are now showing small droplets of blood dripping from his fingers.
If Louis was being honest he could barley feel the pain in his hands, he more was worried about the pain in his heart. It isn't everyday you almost come face to face with the man that killed your mother and it certainly isn't likely that that same person is the man that caused a bullet wound to your side.
"Mikey... You're hurting yourself." JJ whispers out, not liking how he can see visible blood.
"I don't care. Fuck! I don't care! That man, murderer, killed my mother. Killed maman! I'm not just... I'm not okay with that. He deserves to rot in jail!" Louis breathes out rapidly shaking his head and pacing side to side.
("Killed mom!")
Pope and Kie look at eachother in worry before Pope brings Leo into a side hug, not liking the younger boys gloom expression. John B goes to support Leo when Louis stops him with a yell.
"Don't you dare John B. Don't you dare get close to Leo. That man killed our mother and he was closer than I ever wanted him to be to Leo and that's on you!" Louis yells at John B, pointing an accusing finger at him.
Louis knew it wasn't right to yell at John B. Of course John B had no clean, no way of knowing his house would be robbed, that murderers would swarm his house for a compass, yet Louis was blinded by anger and for now he would let that anger take control, even if it wasn't always right.
"Mikey-" JJ whispers out but Louis gives him a stern look.
"Don't 'mikey' me JJ. Not now! I have every right to be pissed. Every single right so don't you dare make it start sounding like I shouldn't be upset!" Louis grumbles out before grabbing at his wavy hair and pulling at it again.
Louis glances at the pogues who all seem stunned and gives them a look before he enters the house again, going straight to the back room to John B's dad's office and grabs his old backpack that was abandoned for two weeks. He uses the straps across his shoulders and walks out, now giving the pogues a glance.
"Leo. Let's go." Louis says sternly, giving Pope a glare as he was holding onto Leo.
"Frére please!" Leo pleads.
"No Leo. Let's go. Now!" Louis says again, more stern this time.
Leo gives Pope an apologetic look before looking back at JJ with pleading eyes. Leo knew that if anyone could calm Louis down it would be JJ.
JJ quickly jogs over to Louis and stops in front of the boy. He frowns slightly when he sees the boys injured hands and frowns even more when he sees that Louis is putting all the weight on one foot to keep him balanced to not cause pain from the healing bullet wound.
"Leo can I uhhh... Steal Louis for a second."
Leo nods and goes back to Pope, Kie, and John B. Louis goes to argue with JJ put is already being pushed inside the destroyed house to the bathroom. Louis let's out a small hiss when JJ pushes him in there and let's out a groan when JJ closes the door and locks it.
"Wha-"
"Just... Shush for a second." JJ says interrupting the boy.
Louis sighs and drops his backpack from his shoulders, having a feeling this conversation will take awhile he then leans against the wall and gives JJ a questioning look, as if to say 'you can talk now'.
"Give me your hands." JJ says, having a wet wash rag in his hands.
Louis goes to object but decides against it, slowing unhooking his crossed arms. JJ grabs Louis' right hand and dabs at his palm, trying to clean the small blood.
"Do you want to talk about it?" JJ asks, giving Louis a sympathetic look.
"He killed her Jay. He was so close to harming Leo too... I can't have that... Not after I've lost so much. I can't lose anything more." Louis whispers out, running the hand that JJ wasn't cleaning through his messed up hair.
JJ let's go of Louis hand and quickly grabs his other, cleaning that one as well, staying quiet in case Louis wanted to say more.
"I know it isn't John B's fault but... God I blame myself. If I just went to court or... Or did more... If I wasn't too fucking scared to face him when I had the chance maybe he would still be in jail or.... But instead he fucking escaped and shows up here for a compass. I don't like him being so close to Leo... He shot me, what's to say he won't shoot Leo next, or the Brooks... Or..... You..." Louis rambles letting out a small hiss here and there when JJ cleans his hand.
JJ drops Louis' hand and throws the towel to the side before turning his attention back to Louis. He steps back and sits on the toilet before carefully pulling Louis to him so Louis was standing between his legs.
"I don't know what you are going through but I'm here for you Mikey... And believe it or not, I would take a bullet for Leo... And for you." JJ admits, running his hands up and down Louis' sides.
Louis flinches at the touch at first, before leaning in to JJ. He sets his hands in JJ's hair and hums sadly.
"I don't want you to take a bullet though Jay... I don't want anyone to get hurt... But with him here... Knowing he is here. It adds so much guilt and hate and I can't take it." Louis mumbles, letting out a whimper as his eyes fill with tears.
"Come here." JJ mumbles, before pulling Louis so he was now sitting on his lap instead of between his legs. JJ then pulls Louis so his head rests on his shoulder and rests a hand on his head to keep it there.
"Shshssh... It will be okay. Okay bébe." JJ whispers.Louis shakes his head as tears escape his eyes and pulls JJ closer to him. He feels the tears leave his cheek and land on JJ's shirt and wants to apologize but doesn't have the strength to. JJ senses this and kisses Louis' forehead.
"It will be okay... It will be okay." JJ whispers out, and Louis nods his head sadly even if deep down he knows it won't be.
Louis was broken from seeing that man, especially broken with realizing how close they man was to people be loves. Guilt would soon eat him up, but for now, just for this small moment he allowed himself to be vulnerable to the boy he is falling for in a small bathroom, in a Château, on the small island of Outerbanks. Tomorrow he would face the guilt but for now he would just cry to the boy he saw as his sun.
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My Sun - JJ Maybank
FanficLouis Michael Caswell-Brooks. The new boy on the block. Moving all the way from France to the Outer Banks he tries to fit in all while dealing with the grief caused back at home. Along the way he meets a group of teens who enjoy breaking rules, and...