⚠ Mentions of Drugs and Suicide, Panic Attack, Blood
When Louis returns the the deck where the rest of the pogues are JJ smirks at him, but masks it well but taking a hit of his cigarette. JJ was the only one that knew the reasoning for why Louis returned later than him and he prided himself about having that effect on the boy.
Pope gives Louis a nod and John B sends a wave.
"Hey Louis." Kie says.
"Uh... Hi... Again." Louis says, mumbling the last word in embarrassment. Even if the pogues didn't know what happened moments ago in the Château, Louis did, and that fact alone made him embarrassed.
"So Louis, we were thinking and we have a small hunch on what Redfield could mean..."
Louis looks at John B with a shocked look. He is still on about this mission? Even after everything, Louis thinks.
"Oh... Um...impressionnant!" Louis exclaims, turning his frown into a smile.
("Awesome!")
The smile was fake, it almost hurt his cheeks to form such a smile but as he declared earlier, no one could know. No one could worry. No one could get suspicious.
Your fault.
You wouldn't want them to worry would you? You wouldn't want to be the reason the pogues no longer have fun, right?
Your fault.
They can't know your hurting. They can't know the guilt you hold is true, that the blame you put on yourself is real.
Fake it. Don't let them be sorry. Don't ruin their fun.
"Yeah, I have no clue what you said... But I'm assuming by the smile and excitement you're in." John B says.
If only he knew the smile was fake. If only he knew the excitement in his voice was forced.
"Yeah. John B has this great idea to go to the lighthouse tomorrow. Thinks Redfield has to relate to that. Even though I think his compass is just a death compass." JJ says, moving away from the wall he was leaning against and moving towards Louis.
Louis breath hitches slightly with JJ standing close to him. He can't be this close, not now. Not after what just happened in the Château.
"If it is a death compass we must be on our toes tomorrow and we can't do that if we get no sleep. So while you all stay out I'm going to bed. Night boys." Kie says, walking into the Château, the door closing behind her.
"I'm with her. Goodnight JJ. Night Louis." John B voices before enter the Château after Kie. Pope followed after him, waving as a way to say goodnight.
A silence is in the air between the two new lovers the only sound being from the wind. Louis looks at JJ then and takes a step towards him. JJ looks down at him, a smile forming just from the realization of the height difference. It was only a 3 inch difference but that difference was enough to make Louis have to stand on his toes to kiss him.
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My Sun - JJ Maybank
FanfictionLouis Michael Caswell-Brooks. The new boy on the block. Moving all the way from France to the Outer Banks he tries to fit in all while dealing with the grief caused back at home. Along the way he meets a group of teens who enjoy breaking rules, and...