My Sun - JJ Maybank

Chapter 69: Hot Tub Breakdowns

JJ had done many reckless things in his life that he regretted. 

When he was thirteen he was so pissed off at his dad that he decided to tell the whole school his dad was a pedophile. Of course though, that led to his father hearing the rumors and putting JJ back in his place.

When JJ was fourteen he got pissed off at an argument with John B that he broke one of John B's surfboards. John B just yelled back causing JJ to feel guilty and make one for him with his bare hands.

JJ had done many reckless things in his life, but spending stolen money from a drug dealer to buy a hot tub, that was probably the most reckless thing he has done in awhile.

He didn't regret it though. All JJ was really thinking about was the happy faces of his friends when they would see the hot tub, and a way for JJ to win their forgiveness back. JJ also possibly bought it because he was emotionally distraught and needed some way to cope. He couldn't with the thought of Mattie and Louis. The thought hurt him too much.

He was conflicted and confused. He loved Louis, Louis was his soulmate, yet everything kept on pulling them away, JJ almost taking it as a sign that him and Louis weren't meant for eachother. And being with Mattie. That moment of weakness he showed Mattie, it meant something to the blonde, even if he didn't want to admit it. The kiss they shared brought back emotions that JJ has kept hidden in his heart for a year. JJ hated to admit it, but he believed he was in love with two people at the same time.

And as the saying goes, "If you love two people at the same time, choose the second. Because if you really loved the first one, you wouldn't have fallen for the second." The thing was though, JJ didn't know who the first and second love were. Sure he knew Mattie first, but did he really fall in love with him first? Or was it Louis, and after that split than the shared kiss with Mattie did he realize he loved Mattie?

JJ had no idea who he loved first, who he loved more, and what path of his heart to follow and that terrified him. 

JJ didn't want to be alone. He was tired of being alone. He was afraid however that if he went with either path the end would all be the same. Alone.

JJ sat alone in the hot tub, contemplating his thoughts, trying to understand and read his heart, and escape the pain in his body and mind when he heard voices. The thought of the pogues seeing him slightly terrified him. He kept up so many walls that it would take an entire army to break through.

"Gotta be done before my scholarship interview in the morning." Pope says exiting the car and helping Leo out who gladly accepts the help.

Leo was currently wearing one of Pope's button ups, it was slightly to large on his figure but not to the point where anyone would question it. No one would really even be able to notice the shirt belonging to anyone else unless they knew the owner of the shirt. Pope, Leo and Kie had been working all day trying to find a plan to get the gold. 

If they were all being honest, the only reason they were working so hard on a plan was to get everyone's mind off of Louis and JJ. They had yet to know what happened between them, but when neither returned to say bye to John B before he went on his fishing trip, they began to get concerned. Leo especially.

Leo knew his brother but he always worried when his brother would leave unnoticed without any clues. Louis was his older brother, of course he worried about what he did. Plus it didn't help that he just found out his brother was using drugs from the man who held them gunpoint. That was something he would have to discuss with him whenever he saw him again.

"Okay, well, we gotta focus." Kie says, giving Leo a thankful nod when he helps her out of the car.

 "I know. It's gonna be fine. We got John B and JJ inside the well, and me up top. You and Sarah will be outside transporting. Leo and Louis will be outside making sure we are clear at all times." Pope instructs, Leo nodding along and pulling the button up shirt closed to him.