True Emotions (Bakugou x Reader)

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TW: PANIC ATTACK.- read at your own discretion

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You look up from your hands, shock riddled your face. Yout felt your face heat up as you said,

"a-all of y-you?!" You could barely get the words out as you looked to the people sitting around the table.

"Yes, Katsuki is fluent in both Spanish and English as well." Mitsuki laughed at your distressed expression.

"Damn it you old hag" You hear Katsuki yell as he hits something onto the table. You flinched hard. You felt Katsuki sit back down and calm down at your sudden movement. Everyone at the table looked at you as they stared at the tea cup in your hand.You couldn't bring yourself to look at Katsuki . As much as you wished you were invisible, you couldn't bring yourself to walk away.

"Katsuki you ungrateful brat, I'm helping you, dumbass" You hear Mitsuki yell at her son.

You felt your body start to shake and tears pricked your eyes. All the yelling brought you back to your step mother and you couldn't bear it. You hid your face from the group as you tried to prevent any tears from falling.

You can't cry now. It's too petty, no one is going to care. You'll just get punished for crying. Stop before it's too late. Why were you so careless? This is your fault. You should have just told him it was a gardener or a palace chef. Why do you ruin everything? You're so worthless, why did you think here would be any better than home?

"Sweetie calm down you're scaring her." Masaru said as he noticed your panicked state. You ignored his comment as you stared into your tea with a blank expression.

"Sweetie, why don't you go back to your chambers. Katsuki can walk you there." Masaru said calmly. You looked up finally before saying,

"Non, non, excusez-moi (No, no please excuse me)" You stood from your spot before placing your tea cup down and turning around. You took a couple steps towards the door before bolting into a run. You felt a tear run down your face followed by another, soon you were sobbing.

You ran out of the suite and down a hallway before you bumped into a laughing Kirishima.

"Hey- Oh my gosh, are you alright!?" He asked softly at your tear stained face. You nodded before slowly continuing down the hallway to your room.

When you arrived at your chambers you closed the door and locked it. You let out a choked sob as you sunk to the floor, your head resting against the door.

~~Flash back~~

"You good for nothing child. You are not allowed in the garden for any reason. If I ever catch you there again you will be getting a much worse punishment than this." Your step mother yelled as she watched you take coals out of a burning fire.

Your hand was blistered and felt as though it was going to fall off. Ritsu just sat beside your step mother as she laughed at your pain. She was dressed in your favorite pink dress, she was always jealous that your mother gave it to you and not her. To her benefit, your step mother was willing to make you part with it.

Your brother could hear your cries from his studies, yet he never came rushing. No one bothered to help you as your hand became red with blisters. You struggled to not scream in agony, for it would just result in a worse punishment.

You muffled your cries but as you finally took out the last hot coal you wailed in pain. This resulted in a harsh slap across your face from your fouel sister.

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You remember writhing in agony for weeks after as you could no longer use your dominant hand. Your brother helped treat the burns and eventually the scars faded.

Tears streamed down your face as you remembered the painful memories. You stayed in your hoveled position as you sobbed. Your body shook violently as your breathing quickened. You remembered the fights it caused and the nights where you cried yourself to sleep because of the pain she put you through.

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"What have I told you about these stupid books, Y/n?" Your step mother said as she snatched a copy of Hamlet out of your hands. Before you could react she grabbed your collar and dragged you to your room.

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Women. Dont. Read. She said, whipping you in between each word. "You will never find a husband if you read. A man wants a girl who stays quiet and submits to him, and I guarantee he will never approve of this venial sin!" She said as she whipped you three more times.

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You felt sick to your stomach as you slowly rose to your feet. You felt as though you were going to throw up all of the tea you had drank out of stress earlier. You ran to your bathroom before you got rid of everything you had eaten in the last 24 hours.

After you washed yourself off, you felt your quivers slowing down. Tears slowed down as you came down from your panic attack. You knew you were going to be in trouble later so you just layed on your bed as you waited for the inevitable.