Finding Home

Chapter Thirty-Three

"Devon I'm freezing" I said as my teeth felt like they were about to shatter from all they were doing. "Soon you will be warm love" he said in my ear. Once we were past the trees, I saw a snowmobile type setup, but it had a top that was enclosed to it.

Once inside he turned on the heat after it started, at that moment I did not care about anything but the heat, I put my hands up to it to try and get the feeling back into them.

"Here" Devon pulled a blanket from the back and wrapped it around me, "thank you" I tried to say but could not fully form the words just yet. He took off in the machine that tore through the snow like it was on fire.

I would glance around from time to time, but we were going too fast for me to make anything out. He knew that they might be tracking us but with it snowing and how fast we were going I had no idea.

After an hour we came to a stop, I looked out the window and saw a small cabin nestled in the trees. If I were not pissed and scared of being with Devon, I would have thought it was a beautiful place.

I could tell the fire was going, and there were lights on inside from the glow. "Where are we?" I asked, not knowing where we were. "This was my parents' old cabin that dad would take mom to be alone together" he said as he got out.

I did not want to leave the small space that finally warmed me up, but inside there was an actual fire to sit beside. Devon came around to the other side and opened the door.

I wrapped the blanket around me and got out, taking ahold of the hand Devon held out for me, the snow was deep here, and I really did not want to fall.

We got to the door and Devon opened it, I stepped inside, and the heat came rushing at me, it felt so good. I let go of Devon's hand and made my way to the fireplace.

Sitting there I looked around and saw that it had a bathroom and a bedroom with two closed doors, the kitchen and the family room were one giant room.

It was a small place, but it held warmth and it could have been comfortable if given the right time and place.

"Ath, I'm going to make some coffee and I know that you will want some right?" he asked as he went into the kitchen to start up the stove. "I actually would love a cup" I said not moving from the spot next to the fire.

I wish Tom and the brothers would be able to find me, I really do not want to be stuck here forever with Devon. I knew at one time I was madly in love with him, and this would have been the perfect getaway for just us.

But now everything is so different, he is different, not the same man I fell in love with. Devon brought over my coffee to me, "you know Ath, in time you will find those feelings again like before" he said sitting down on the couch facing me.

"You are sure about that" I said sipping the coffee and oh it tasted so good. "I know I am I can still see the way you look at me, deep down there is still a spark there and once we are together tonight, I will have you screaming out my name like before" he said with a smirk.

I stared into the fire, I did not want him to see that I remembered those feelings all too well, it took a long time to get over them with how he had hurt me, and I was afraid that those old feelings might come back if I stayed here.

Devon got up and locked all the doors and went into the one room that was off to the side, he came back and held out his hand. I took it and got up. He did not let go of my hand and walked me into the bedroom.

There was a king size sleigh bed that had furs draped over it, along with a fireplace going and a black nightgown laying on the bed. "Devon, I don't think I can fit into that" I said rubbing my stomach.

"It's okay if you can't baby, I'd much rather you be naked anyway" he said as he came up behind me and wrapped his arms around me and rested his hands on my belly.

"Just think this little one is made from us loving each other, and we will again" he said as he kissed my neck. I shuddered without even thinking about it. Devon thought I was anticipating him; in fact, I was dreading this moment.

He let me use the bathroom, and was standing there naked when I came out, I forgot how good he looked, and I could tell he had been working out a lot more than he used to.

I walked into the bedroom and went to bed, hoping to climb in with my clothes on, but that was not the case. He stopped me at the bed and stripped my clothes off me slowly.

Once I was standing there naked, he helped me get into the bed, he climbed in on the other side and all that was between us was a fur blanket. The fireplace was casting a light that would have been beautiful and romantic.

But tonight, it was anything but. He ravished every part of me and after two hours we laid there, he kept kissing me, but it took everything inside of me not to curl up into a ball and cry.

I kept praying that Tom would forgive me for what I did tonight. One thing I realized though was the feelings I used to have for Devon were long dead. All I kept thinking about was Tom and how he felt under my hands and on my lips.

That is what will keep me going and to get through this, was the thought of being with Tom again and raising a family and making love every night for the rest of our lives.