The Drug In Me Is You ( A Ronnie Radke Love Story)

Chapter 36

Julia’s POV

I groaned as I heard Iris crying again. “I will get her babe.” Ronnie said. These past weeks Ronnie has been useless. He is doing everything in his power to make Willow happy. I love Willow don’t get me wrong but she is not our child. I went through so much pain and worry with Iris and he barely pays attention to her. It has been ten minutes and she is still crying. I got up and walked to Iris’s room and found her alone. I am so pissed. I picked her up and held her close to my body. “Baby girl, it’s okay. Mommy is here.” I said kissing her forehead. I walked to Willow’s room and saw Ronnie holding a crying Willow. I sighed and went to pack some of Iris’s things. I then packed myself a bag. I placed the bags in the car and put Iris in her carrier. I can’t handle this anymore. This is my breaking point. Ronnie promised to help but he hasn’t. He probably doesn’t even love Iris. I secured Iris in the car and began driving away. I saw Ronnie come out of the house and he looked heartbroken. “You promised to take care of her. You lied to me.” I said and with that I drove off into the night. I pulled up outside Robert’s house because I know Ronnie would never look for me there. I grabbed Iris and knocked on the door. “Julia?” he asked. I stared crying more. I helped me into the house and led us to the couch. “Julia, tell me what’s wrong.” He said. “We have been home from the hospital for two weeks and he hasn’t helped me with Iris at all. He is always with Willow. I don’t think he even loves Iris.” I sobbed. He rubbed my back and held me close. “Julia, he loves Iris. Iris is his daughter but Willow is his daughter too. He will find out how much of an asshole he is being and realize what he has done until then you and my favorite niece are staying here.” He said. I smiled and kissed his cheek. He got my bags from my car and took us up to the guest room. “Thank you Robert, I know I can always count on you.” I said hugging him. “That’s what best friends are for.” He said. I placed Iris in bed and climbed in myself. I made her a little crib out of pillow to make her comfy. I woke up the next morning with Iris gone. I headed downstairs and found Rob feeding her. I smiled and pulled out my phone. I had multiple texts and phone calls from Ronnie. I groaned. Rob turned around. “Did he call looking for me?” he nodded. “Did you tell him where I am?” I asked. “I told him that you told me that you were safe.” He said. “Thank you.” I said relaxing on the couch. There are some days where I do think about if Rob and I actually gave our relationship a chance but then I realize it is stupid because I love Ronnie. No matter how much of an asshole he is, I love him. “I should talk to him.” I said. “He is actually gone for the day. He took Willow out.” He said. I screamed and I wanted to kill him. I walked outside to call him. “Julia.” He said breathlessly. “If you think Iris and I are coming home anytime soon you are mistaken. We have two daughter not one. Actually I have one daughter and I love her to the moon and back. Ronnie, I think you and I need a break. You are not the same man I married who made all these promises to me and just let them fall short due to one little girl’s selfishness.” I said into the phone. “Julia, I just want to talk to you. I am dropping Willow off with Gabby and Leila. Please talk to me.” He pleaded. “Fine, I will meet you at Starbucks.” I said hanging up the phone. I headed back inside and went to get ready. “Watch Iris please. I am going to talk to Ronnie.” I said. He nodded. I kissed Iris goodbye and climbed into my car. I walked inside and ordered my coffee. I sat there waiting for Ronnie. He showed up within three minutes of me arriving. “I love you Julia. Please come home.” He said. “I just don’t understand you anymore. You’ve changed.” I said. “I know, Julia. I am trying so hard to be the best dad I can be. I am trying to be the best husband I can be. We have been through too much Julia to throw this all away. I love you and I am trying to make this all work.” He said. “I know, Ronnie. I just am starting to think we shouldn’t have brought Willow into this house. It was nice without Iris but now that she is here look at how Willow is acting.” I said.

Ronnie’s POV

She was right. Willow was acting like a brat. “I love Iris. I love spending time with her. Willow will just have to understand that Iris needs more attention. She can throw all the hissy fits she wants but we will act together now and not alone. I love you, Julia. I just want to be a family.” I said. She began crying. “Do you love Iris?” she asked. “Is that even a question? Of course I do.” I said. “Then why is Willow more important?” she asked. “I made her feel like shit when I stayed in the hospital for two days with you and Iris. I was just trying to make it up to her.” I said. “Ronnie, you were with us for two days not two weeks.” She said. I sighed and rubbed my head. “I knew I was going to be a horrible father. Maybe I should let you find someone else to be their father.” I said. “No Ronnie, I will not let that happen to them. You need to focus on both of them. I am going to talk to Gab and see if Willow can stay with her and you get to take care of Iris one whole night and day by yourself so you can understand what it is like dealing with a baby.” She said. “I’m sorry.” I said. “We will talk about our relationship later Ronald. I am going to call Gab and I will bring Iris to you.” She said. I nodded and sat there while she made the phone call. “I will meet you at the house.” She said. I nodded. I drove home and waited for Julia and Iris. Charlie was glaring at me. “I know I am an idiot.” I said. He barked back a response. Julia walked in and she handed me Iris. Iris instantly started crying. “Why is she crying?” I asked trying to calm her down. “Because you are a stranger to her.” Julia said to me and with hearing that it broke my heart. I grabbed Iris’s bag and Julia left. “Please stop crying, Iris. It is me, daddy.” I said but she would not stop. I then started crying. She doesn’t even know me. I was so wrapped up with Willow that my new baby girl doesn’t even recognize me. She finally cried herself to sleep and I just sat in the rocking chair next to her crib. Sweetie came in and lied down at the foot of her crib.

Iris’s POV (Shocker, I know but baby’s have thoughts and feelings. Oh and by the way two-week-old babies are not this advanced in things but this is how I am making Iris.)

I screamed and cried to be back in my mommy’s warm embrace. She handed me to this unknown person. I am so scared right now. He keeps saying he is my daddy but I don’t have one. Well I did for two days but then he left me. I finally cried myself to sleep. I woke up and screamed because I pooped myself. That strange man jumped right up and picked me up. I screamed more wanting to get away from him. He changed my diaper and held me close. “Please Iris, I love you. Please stop crying. I know I am an awful father but when your mommy said she was pregnant with you I was so happy. I couldn’t have felt any more pride in my life. I knew then I would do anything to make you happy but now all you do is cry. I am so sorry.” The man said to me. I stopped screaming. “Thank you baby girl.” He said kissing my head. I looked up at him and his eyes looked like mine. I reached up to touch them but grabbed his hair. It felt so soft like my skin. I started giggling and pulling on it. The man smiled down at me. “I love you, Iris.” He said. I cuddled up close in his arms and held one of his fingers, which are huge. I stuck it in my mouth and he laughed. My tummy grumbled and I scrunched my face about to cry. “Don’t cry, please. Are you hungry?” he asked. I didn’t know what to do but I wanted to cry. I also didn’t want to upset him. He started walking. We ended up downstairs. I saw my best friend. I started giggling and clapping. He placed me down on the ground in my playpen with my best friend. I pulled at her ears and she licked my face. He came back with a bottle and I reached for it. He chuckled and picked me up. He placed the bottle in my mouth and I sucked. I started feeling sleepy again. He patted my back and I made a strange sound. I them fell asleep in his arms. I woke up and saw him lying down and holding me. I poked him and he opened one of his eyes. I giggled and he kissed my cheek. He picked me up and we headed upstairs. He smelled my butt. “You stink baby.” He said changing my diaper then put my PJs on me. We walked to a new room I hadn’t even known yet. He placed me on his chest and kissed my head. “I love you.” He said. I smiled and wrapped my tiny arms around his arm. This is my daddy. I fell asleep only to be woken up by being lifted up. “She won’t let go of him.” I heard a voice. I began screaming, which woke up my daddy. “What are you doing, Julia?” he asked. Mommy was here. She was trying to take me from daddy. “She is supposed to sleep in her crib.” Mommy said. “Well I wanted her in here with me and by the looks of it she didn’t want to leave me.” Daddy said. “Ronnie, we have to talk.” She said. “Well it can wait.” He said holding me close to him. Mommy looked annoyed. “I will be downstairs.” She said. My daddy held me close. “Sweetheart, I am going to put you in your crib while I talk to mommy. I love you.” He said. He walked to my room and tucked me in. “I will be back.” He said.

Ronnie’s POV

I made my way downstairs and found Julia. “Why were you taking her from me?” I asked. “Because, she should be sleeping in her crib.” She said. “We all know that isn’t true.” I said. “I was just mad that she actually behaved for you.” She said. “She isn’t like that every night.” I said. “No, she is a pain in the ass and cries.” She said. “Julia, this is something we have to work at together. She is a baby. She can’t act the same way all the time. Please, come home.” I said holding out my arms. She nodded and sat there. “I will hug you.” I said. “Nope.” She said. I walked over to her and she got up and ran. I chased her around and out into the back yard. I finally caught her and we fell into the pool. We popped our heads up laughing. She looked at me and kissed me. “I love you Ronnie. Please, help with Iris. I need it.” She said. “I promise I will help.” I said kissing her. We got out of the pool and headed inside. We cleaned up and I went to check on Iris. She looked up at me with her big brown eyes. She began reaching for me. I picked her up and held her close. She touched my face and I kissed her. I heard a camera click and I saw Julia. “She loves you.” She said. “And I love her.” I said.