The Secret Sister

Chapter 15:Explaining

I looked up to see his eyes pleading with me, I looked down at the floor and gave Nat a look. She gave me a smile that gave me the strength to do this "The red room" I said hearing gasps from everyone but Nat

"I left before I finished" I said giving Steve's hand a little squeeze "Or should I say you pulled me out before they could finish" I didn't dare look up at Tony I didn't want to see the hurt in his eyes

I don't like to talk about my time there it was only for 10 years but I still didn't like it, they kept trying to fill my head with nonsense but I wouldn't listen. Nat would train me and to be honest they trained me better than Nat and in the long run I am better at fighting than she is

"The boarding school you sent me to was the red room" I said not looking at anyone but the floor, I could feel everyone staring at me.  Steve was still rubbing my hand keeping me calm "I was there for 10 years learning how to be their weapon of destruction, how to do what is necessary to complete my mission" I felt a few tears escape my eyes

"I'm not that person anymore yes I have done things that I am not proud of but I've moved on and I don't do that stuff anymore" I didn't know what else to say.  Nat has already told them about her expierence and they were all the same things that I went through so I didn't feel like talking about it and going through it again

"And I don't want to talk about it" I said wiping the tears from my face

I looked up and saw Tony had a tear falling down his cheek as well, I got up and walked over to Tony crouching down and picking his face up.  I wiped the tear away "Hey you didn't know" I said trying to ease his mind

"I'm sorry" he said pulling me into a hug

"No its not your fault you were to young to take care of me" I said by his ear not to loud so everyone else could hear

I pulled away and looked at Clint "There you go I hope that answers your questions" I said looking down at the ground before leaving the living room and going to my bedroom

I sat on my bed and just thought about what I just told everyone, I know Nat said they wouldn't look at me differently but I can't help but feel like they are.   I mean the team already had three assassins so whats one more right

I was trying not to think about telling the team and what I went through but it wasn't working, tears were falling down my face more and more.  I didn't hear the door open and someone come in my room and I was to absorbed in my past to even care who it was

I felt arms around me and I was brought into a hug, I cried into this persons strong arms.  I could tell it was Steve just on how he was sitting and the way his arms felt around me.  This is the man I'm in love with and no one can tell me any differently not even my own brother

"Steve" I choked out between my sobs

"Shush I'm here and I'm not going anywhere" he said kissing my forehead

I just cried into his arms, I hate showing emotion but right now I'm to numb to care.  I can't help but feel like I'm going to be treated differently than I was before but I do know forsure that Steve, and Nat will not look at me differently

Steve has already proved that for instance like now and earlier on our first date when I told him a little bit and then when I told him the rest of my past just earlier today

I could feel my thoughts slowly leaving my brain and my eyes getting heavier with every cry that comes out of my mouth, I gave in and let the darkness comsume me and I let it take over

I fell asleep in Steve's arms on the bed just like I hope to for the rest of my life

When I woke up I was still in Steve's arms laying down on the bed, I looked up at him and gave him a smile "Morning" he said giving me a sweet little kiss on the forehead

"Morning?" I said a little confusion in my voice

"You slept all night" he said giving me a smile which I happily returned

"Oh I wasn't a problem was I" I ask

"No not at all" he said moving the piece of hair that fell on my face behind my ear

"Steve--" I went to say but he put his finger over my mouth

"Don't I'll be here til the end" he said grabbing my hand and giving it a kiss

"Steve I love you" I said smiling

"I love you too" he said

I sat up and gave him a kiss and he kissed me back "I love you so much you don't even know" I said between our kisses

"Thats not possible" he said kissing me more "I love you more"  We love each other so much that I can't even explain it

Hello I am colabing with @michalarae on Like Fire and Ice.  It is under her account but I am tagged in every episode, it is a love hate kinda story and will have many turns in the near future.

(LOKI MARVEL AU FANFIC!)

Sweet, Charming, Kind, Caring, Funny, Gentle...

Loki is everything Elidi's mother told her a frost giant could NEVER be. She was sent to Asgard by the orders of the fire giant king, Surtur, to assassinate Laufey's Son. At first, she thought it would be easy. Kill him and get out of Asgard before Ragnarok, but love always complicates things...

Should she follow orders like a good fire giant soldier and daughter?

OR

Should she follow her heart to a love she's always longed for with Loki?

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"Kill him tonight, or you are no daughter of mine." She grabbed the back of my neck, forcing me to look in her eyes. "You kill him tonight, Elidi, or I will, and you'll be banished from Muspelheim for the rest of eternity."

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"Eli, No!" I heard Loki's voice shaking as he wept over my head in his lap. "Please Eli, I can't lose you, I love you!"

"I love you too. Eternally." I used all my strength in the moment, trying to will the words to come out louder, but they were still a mere whisper.

"Eli." His lips crashed onto mine upside down, all the passion of our time apart conveyed in one kiss. It filled me like lifeblood, and my eyes fluttered open.

"I'm fine, Loki. Promise." I started to sit up with his assistance and turned around to see those familiar green eyes boring into my very soul, filled with love and tenderness.

"But... how did you?" He asked, his hand running along my cheek gently, tenderly.

"I told you," I said, dropping the magical disguise I had clung to for oh so long and allowing the orange-red tones spread over my flesh, revealing the hot, blazing blue fire within my eyes and the flicker of light in my long red hair. "You could never hurt me."

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Like Fire and Ice is a twisting, turning, Loki-centered novel of enemies to lovers in a Marvel AU! Read on if you dare!