The Secret Sister

Chapter 17:Spiral

It had been days since the mission but I'm still spiraling, still reliving the moments Yelena took her last breath. Alone. I had been sent on a mission with Yelena and it went sideways

Running for our lives and hers ended way too early, everyone kept coming into my room to see if I changed moods but I didn't. I sat on my bed slumped and numb. I wouldn't eat or sleep or look at anybody, Nat knew the loss I felt, she felt it too. Tony doesn't get why I freaked out and I'm sure Nat told him why I don't go on missions anymore

Everybody knows the risk when they leave their home to go on a mission but nobody ever thinks death is actually going to happen, there are protocols and strategies in place for a reason. Those things are in place so people don't die and especially in the Red Room. Every Widow was built to perfection and letting one die like that just wasn't possible but it happened

"Tori please eat something" Steve put down a tray of food infront of me on the bed "You don't need to talk or even look at me but please eat something your going to starve" he said. I could tell Steve was worried about me, I need to move on but physically I don't think I can

I picked my head up enough to look at the food before dropping my head again, I pushed the tray forward and heard a sigh. "I'm sorry" I burst into tears again

"Hey, hey" he brought me into a hug and tried calming me down, as I was in Steve's arms I felt a prick on my neck that I knew all too well and then it came. The darkness, the quietness and peace that is short lived

When I woke up I felt my hands bound. I started to scream, this can't be happening again. How am I back with the Red Room but when I screamed I felt something in my throat. I heard footsteps coming closer to me and louder every second, I needed to get free before I was activated again

"Tori its me your okay" Tony said coming over to me pulling the tube out of my nose

"Let me go" I tired getting out of the bounds, I pulled and pulled but they weren't giving. "Please" I went numb and didn't care anymore

"I'm sorry Tori but you needed to eat and sleep" Tony said undoing the bounds

I just laid on the bed, I want Nat but I won't speak. "Natalia" I said under my breath barely enough for Tony to hear me

"I'll get her" he said walking out of the room

Soon Nat came in the room and walked over to me, sitting down on the bed next to me. "I'm here Night" she put her hand on my knee lifiting my chin giving me a smile

"Yelena" I said throwing myself into her arms, how is this possible. I thought she died infront of me, "How is this real?" I choked out through my sobbs

"I'm sorry I stayed away but I'm here now Night" she let a tear slip from her eye and she pulled me tighter and then the door busted open. Yelena was pulled off of me by Steve who looked worried but protective

"Steve stop please" I said running between him and Yelena "I'm okay please" I said looking from him to Yelena a smile forming on my face

"Yelena" a voice came from the door

"Natalia" she said another tear falling from her eye

Nat ran over to Yelena and I and we all hugged each other, crying into each others shoulders. The sister hood was alive and we were reunited, "I need you to explain" Nat said pulling away and looking at Yelena

"I'll explain but not here and not now" she said looking at Steve

"Okay we can go to a conference room" I said giving Steve a smile

I lead us to a conference room and shut the door, locking it. "Jarvis blackout" I looked up at the ceiling blocking out the cameras and making sure Tony would never hear what is said in this room

"Now talk" Nat crossed her arms looking at Yelena

"Dreykov" she said that one name and it was enough to stop time

"No" I was shaking my head "Not another word he is dead and thats final I am finally happy and moving on"

"Tori" she reached for my hand but I back away

"No Yelena I'm glad your alright and alive but I don't ever want to hear his name again, I left that life and I'm never going back" I looked at Yelena showing I was serious "When you leave please say goodbye but I don't want to hear anymore of this

I left the room, walking to the gym. I have been numb for I don't even know how long but I needed to blow off some steam. I hung a punching bag and starting hitting it

Dreykov kept showing up behind my eyes, having memories play through my mind. Why was I sent to that boarding school, there are hundreds hell thousands in this world but no it had to be the Red Room

I had to become a trained assassin, I had to become heartless and learn a lesson when I let someone in

I still don't believe that Yelena fell on her own, she is to careful for that. I think the Red Room did something to her and she fell, hitting the ground hard

I need to get to the bottom of everything, that went wrong in my life but I can't right now. Right now I need to get out of this spiral and move on and be happy, not just for myself but for everybody I love