The Secret Sister

Chapter 16:Normal

Steve and I just stared into each others eyes, he has these mesmerizing soft blue ocean eyes.  When I stare into them its like floating in the ocean, like I could be lost adrift for days

But with thinking about that blue I thought of the serum I made and spilled on me.  I have to run tests and make sure I'm fine before I burn down the tower trying to learn how to control the powers

"Steve I got to get up and do stuff in the lab" I looked up into his eyes, sitting up

"Do you have to" he whined sitting up, wrapping his arms around my shoulders

"Unfortunately yes I do" I pushed his arms off of me and got up, getting dressed.  "I know I don't like leaving you but I have one important thing to do and it needs to be done today" I turned around and looked at him

"But do you really" Steve said coming over to me and putting his finger under my chin, lifting my head to look up at him

"Yes" I went to kiss him but he pulled away "Hey" I said hurt in my voice

"You are leaving me" he brought his face down to my ear and it sent shivers down my spine

"Fine goodbye" I turned around whipping my hair in his face and walking out of my room.  I walked through the tower hoping that Tony wouldn't be in the lap when I got down there

I walked in and to my luck it was empty, I started to do my research fast.  I needed to get this done now before I was disturbed.  I ran test after test, blood, physical, brain scans and everything I could think of.  But everything came back normal "How is this possible?" I asked myself frustrated

Theres no way in hell that I spilled that liquid on myself and then blew out the towers electricity, and now be fine.  I did double tests on everything and they all came out the same, telling me I was normal and healthy

"Well I guess I'm normal still" I deleted all my results from the computer system and got rid of anything, that would point that I was in the lab.  I walked into the living room listening to a mission the Avengers would be going on

"We need to take the base down and bring in a hydra agent to interrogate" Fury said looking around at the Avengers suited up in their superhero costumes

"Hey Tori could come with" Tony said turning towards me

"What? No, I can't" I said looking at him

"Yes you can" he looked at Fury

"Yeah I guess she can go with suit up" Fury looked at me saying that

"No I can't" I said shaking my head looking at Tony before looking at Nat

"You were trained in the Red Room yes you can" he said "Now go change" he pointed up to my room demanding me in his leader voice

"NO" I yelled "I can't" I sunk to the floor and started crying "I can't" I couldn't do it again "Please don't make me" that day was the worst pain I had ever felt in my life.  Losing part of myself, a part of my family

"Tori, Tori" I could hear my name being called but the voices were so far away, so dull and faint.  I lost Yelena on the last mission I ever went on and I promised that I would never lose someone I loved again

"Please? No don't force me to go" I sobbed going through my memories flashing in my eyes, I felt hands on my face and a forehead touching mine.  Comforting me or trying to stop my mind from going back to the past, just like Yelena would do to me 

Yelena falling from the roof and hitting the ground with such a force, she would had never been able to survive that fall.  "Tori I know okay I know! and I promise that won't happen again" I heard a female voice say worried "Tori can you hear me?" Nat asked

I nodded my head not being able to talk, "Okay Steve take her up to her room and just comfort her we got this mission without you" Nat said pulling her forehead away, moving aside from me

I opened my eyes and saw Steve coming towards me, "Promise me Natalia" I needed her to say it, I needed her to confirm her promise and bring everyone I love back home

"I promise Night" she gave me a small smile using Yelena's nickname for me

"Thank you" I said letting Steve pick me up, I buried my head in his chest and cried.  I had my arms around his neck and I just couldn't hold it anymore, she was my hope and what held me together and then she was gone in the blink of an eye.  Just like that

I felt the bed dipping as Steve sat on it, everything I had aimed to leave in the past all came rushing back in the last few days.  Things that made me the worst person ever or things that showed my true nature

I've done everything in me to hide who I truly am but with time any secret comes out, revealing everything a person is capable of.  "Babe whats wrong?" Steve tried getting me to talk but I couldn't

"I can't" I said through my sobs

"Okay, okay" he lowered us down onto the bed and brought me into a cuddle.  Rubbing my back, tracing circles.  "I'm here and I'm not going anywhere"

I could tell he meant what he said but I know that only time tells what happens to the people we love, I lost my parents and then Yelena and I can't take anymore loss.  My parents crushed me but Yelena broke me

Sending me into a spiral that took ages to get out of, and just when I was becoming happy again.  I was brought back into the spiral