The Secret Sister

Chapter 41:I lost her

"Finally" I said turning my head around and facing Steve "Oh what their out of ideas so they sent you?" I questioned looking back to the one way mirror again hoping I was staring at Tony

"I just came to see if you would tell me whats going on" he said calming walking over, standing in front of me at the table

"Well if you came here hoping I would tell you get lost because its not happening" I spit in his face

"Tori please just talk to me" Steve took a deep breath continuing "It was your idea that we had no more secrets so whats changed" Steve moved over, right next to me sitting on the table. Steve was looking in my eyes trying to find something that would express my weakness but I wasn't giving him anything except regret

"Yeah well I lied happy I have secrets and theres nothing you can do about it" I looked down at the ground feeling a tear escape my eye

"What the hell is going on?" he asked furiously gripping my chin and lifting my head up to look at him

"Why do you want to know?" I spit back at him, venom in my voice

"I just want to help you" he said his eyes returning to their calm ocean blue shade

"Steve please its to hard" Once he had my head in his hand, it was too hard to look away, but yet I managed

I pulled my head out of his grip and dropped my head again going numb, my side hurt, along with everything else in my life. Nobody here understands my problems except me. "Tori I just want to help you" I could hear it in his voice. The truth and hurt all mixed into one

"I'm sorry" I looked up tears filling my eyes

"Why you have nothing to be sorry for?" he questioned confused

"Steve I'm so sorry" I started to let the tears fall down my face

"Tori if you don't tell me what your sorry for I can't help you" he said

"Steve you don't understand" I sobbed

"Then help me understand" he grabbed my chin again but this time being nicer

"Steve" I took a deep breath

"Tori please" he begged me

"Okay" I gave in letting my walls crash down, hitting the floor in a big pile of rubble. "To much" I said tears refilling my eyes. Looking into his eyes makes me want to spill my guts out and forget about everything that happened in the past and go get our child together. Forget about Dreykov and the Red Room, forget about being an assassin. About Melina and Alexi, about the Avengers and just wish I was a normal human, in a normal world

"Well it can't be so much because here you are chained to a table like a dog being questioned so tell me what is going on please" he loosened his grip and gave me a smile

"Steve" I dropped my head. Remembering Anya is painful I didn't even get 5 minutes with her before Yelena had to take her away from me.

"Stop playing games" he snapped causing me to flinch.

"I'm sorry" I dropped my head to the floor, letting it hang "I lost her" I let slip out of my mouth, breaking into sobs

"You lost who?" Steve asked worried getting down on the floor, looking up into my red, puffy eyes

"I lost Anya" I started sobbing more. I was fighting against the restraints, pulling the table more. I need to get free, hide my face in my own comfort. Steve took his keys and uncuffed my wrists. I moved my hands quickly away from the table and covered my face, just balling my eyes out while Steve pulled me off my chair. I slipped off the chair and fell into his lap, Steve was letting me sit on his lap "I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner" I can't believe this is how hes going to find out hes a dad, I wanted it to be differently

I wanted to be in a happy time with tears of joy, not sadness. I wanted to maybe make a baby box, it would have had the pregnancy test, cloths, a cute teddy bear and a small blanket with a sign. The sign would read Welcome to fatherhood It would have been perfect

"What do you mean?" I could tell it was taking everything Steve had in him to not freak out even more. He wanted answers but he wouldn't demand the answers he wanted, nevermind needed

"I lost our daughter Steve" I looked up at him and his face was in pure shock. Mouth hanging open and his eyes wide

"What" he breathed out "Thats not possible we haven't been together in like four years" he said trying to figure everything out in his head. The last four years has been terrible and heartbreaking to say the least

"I know" I said wiping away the tear that fell from his eye "Steve please say something" I was worried on what he would say once he found out the truth. We never talked about a future, I didn't even know if he wanted children with me

"So we have a child together?" he asked clearifing what I said, processing the news

"Yes together we have a baby girl" I said hugging him

"We have a child" he yelled in happiness.

"Yes and I'll show you pictures once I can get to my room" I gave him a smile before being brought into a kiss and thats when I heard it a big

"WHAT!"

I looked around the room and saw everybody but Tony. Happy smiles on everyones faces, smiles that stretched from ear to ear "Where's Tony?" I asked anxious

"In the other room" Nat said pointing behind the one way glass

I took off running towards him, when I got in the other room. His face was blank and in shock "Tony" I stepped through the door, my shadow casting into the room. Tony turned around looking at me. His shadow casting in the dark lighting against mine

"I'm an uncle" he said barely above a whisper

"Yes" I said nodding my head at him

"I'm an uncle" he shouted running over to me and bringing me into a big hug