New Year's Eve morning, I get up early and start packing an overnight bag for the hotel. I pack a small bag because I have a team of hair and makeup meeting me at the hotel for tonight's performance. The last thing I grab is my custom-made gown. I knew Ben would have been drooling over it tonight.
Opening the garage, I pick the SUV and load my bag and garment bag in the back. I open the driver's door and see Ben's empty coffee cup in the holder from the last time I was in this truck. I grab it and toss it in the garbage. Before backing out of the garage, I dial his number from the vehicles Bluetooth.
The phone starts ringing as I pull out to the street and start towards the hotel. I'm expecting his voicemail, so when he answers, I'm shocked. Ben's deep voice rings through the truck, he sounds miserable. He is just as sad as me.
"I wasn't expecting you to answer since you've been ignoring my text messages. Please tell me that we aren't breaking up. I miss you like crazy, and I don't want to be here without you."
"We aren't breaking up. I promise. There are just some things that I need to deal with, and I needed to get away to clear my head to do that."
"Can you understand how that sounds on my end? You needed to get away from ME to clear your head." I point out.
"Ally, we come from two different worlds, and I'm left questioning everything." He answers me honest.
"That's BS. We are more alike than you want to admit. What are you questioning?" I ask him with an irritated tone in my voice.
"I don't want to fight."
"I'm not fighting. I just want to hear what kind of things my boyfriend is questioning, and why he had to leave to figure them out."
"Fine." He huffs into the phone. "Will I be enough for you? Are you going to be upset in a couple of years that you stayed with me instead of being with someone like Alex? Can we find a balance between our two lives? I don't want you to give up anything to be with me, so I need to work on fitting into your world."
"I was sad, but now I'm pissed. I don't understand where this is coming from. From the moment I met you, I loved you the way you were, and I don't want you to change anything. I need to go and check into my hotel room." I tell him needing to get off the phone.
"Okay." He sounds sad.
"I'm performing with Alex tonight and I really needed you here, but I'm sure he already told you this."
"He did. I asked him to tape it for me...I did love watching you sing on Christmas."
With my free hand, I wipe the tears from my face and tell him that I need to go for a second time. My SUV is parked in the hotels valet parking and I'm frantically trying to pull myself together.
"Ben, I've been crying for the last week and I promised myself that today I wasn't. You really hurt me when you left, and this really sucks." I tell him.
"I'm sorry. I'll let you go."
Checking into my room is quick and painless, my luggage is set on the bed and my dress hangs in the closet.
I pull the covers back from the large bed and look at the clock, there is two hours before the team arrives. My mind spins between taking a nap or enjoying a soaking bath. Walking into the large bathroom, I start running the water. A bath will help me relax my nerves.
When my makeup and hair team show up, I sit in one of the dining room chairs in Ben's button- down shirt he left behind. Alex lets himself into my room and sits in a chair across from me. He hands me a box of shoes.
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Heartlines
Roman d'amour*** Complete Story *** Allyson Sicard was in her final year at Harvard and while her roommates were trying to get their Ivy League boyfriends to propose, Ally was trying to figure out which law school she wanted to graduate from. Columbia had always...
