Craving him-The Secrets we keep

05-Cheating?

Blaine

Ever since the call Arielle got she's been distance. I think she wants to talk to him but she's still holding back because she wants to punish him for leaving. I don't know if I want her talking him she's been having a hard time and I think this is just going to make it worse.

I kiss her forehead before watching her as she enters school. Everyone staring at her as she walks in then when she walks into school they stare at me. I stick the finger up at them then they roll their eyes at me. Like I cared what they thought about me.

As I drive away I think about Arielle, I did so much damage to her. Yet she continues to love me everyday and I can't even do a simple as tell her I love her. I do love her but I'm afraid if I actual come out and say it, everything will fall apart on us.

And I'm not ready for that especially not to lose her. When she didn't tell me she could have Cancer I especially uterus Cancer I was afraid for her. But also for myself I never thought about having children even with Madeline I never thought about it. It made me realize it was something I wanted, children.

I drive to school it's feels like it's been a long time since I been to school. The school looks exactly the way I left it with different classes, the hallway smells of alcohol and cigarettes. The student rushing to get into there classes early.

I walk into school, everyone staring at me as I walk into school. I guess nothing different except for everything is different. I'm not the same person I was when I started school to now and I have Arielle to thank for that. She makes me want to be better for her.

Violet walks up to me and tries to put her arms around me. I grabbed her wrist "don't try it Violet!".

She chuckles evilly "ha, she still has your wrapped around her finger. I'm surprised she hasn't gone tired of your shit".

"You say that like we dated Violet, you don't know anything about me. Stop pretending like you know me."

She pulls me closer to her "I probably know you better than anyone else. Your mad at the world like I am, mad at your parents. You can't even say I love you to your girlfriend, that you claim you care about so much about. Maybe you haven't changed at all".

I scream in her face "How do you know about that?". "We are nothing alike, I'm not a broken fucking  piece of glass that you can put back together. And yeah I can't say I love to my girlfriend, But that's nun of your business so fucking mind it." Shock is on her face like she never seen me like this before.

As She runs off everyone staring at me and I walked past them like I didn't care. I wondered how she knew about that. I stopped caring what everyone thought about me, because everyone was going to hate on me anyways. I found the guys from football and I walked towards them, They crowd around me including Anthony. They thought of me of a god, a playboy god I wasn't that person anymore.

"Hey bro" they all high five me at once. Then they start talking about a party that they went to. I started to space out until Arielle name comes up in the conversation.

I say "what?" They all look at me confused. I look at each of them then I look at Anthony, Anthony looks like he had no idea what they were talking about.

"Arielle went to the party, she looked like she was troubled like something was on her mind and she was drinking. I thought you knew because when I asked if you knew she said you did."