Craving him-The Secrets we keep

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Arielle

They all look at me as if I went insane. It's was time they unplugged him, it's obvious that he's not going to wake up. As much as I don't want to I have to for him.
"It's time we need to let him go" I state. I think they thought I would say to keep him on life support.

"I think you should think about this Arielle once you unplug him he will die. Give it a few days to really think about it".

February 10,2020

It's been a week I thought about it long and hard. He's not going to wake up I cried every day thinking about it. I need this type of closure, in reality all I needed for Blaine but I don't have that anymore.

Elijah yelled through the phone "hurry and get to the hospital" before I could read the whole text I ran into Anthony room and drag him out to take me to the hospital.

I'm fidgeting with my fingers I'm nervous what if he's dead be I get there and I never got to say goodbye. The bad thoughts circle my mind.

When I got there I ran into Blaine's room he was without a ventilator. I look at Elijah and Angela with smiles on their faces.

I ran up next to Blaine he lays there smiling up at me. I lean in and kissed him I been wanting to do that never since he's been here. I whisper "I missed you please don't never do that again".

I'm crying happy tears I can't breathe he's here with me. He grips my hand in his he whispers "there isn't any place I want to be then right next to you".

He tried to sit up but I held him down "please don't get up you hurt yourself in the crash. What were you thinking?".

"I swear I didn't do it on purpose. Yes I was speeding our memories kept replaying in my head. I hear your voice and saw you in everything I saw. I was about to turn I thought the stoplight was was green but when I crossed I guess it was red another guy came and I swerved to avoid hitting him. I would never hurt you by killing myself".

"I thought you weren't going to wake up" I said in a low voice so that I wouldn't cry.

He sat up and wiped the tears from my eyes "I know I heard you, it was like I was there but I couldn't move. Elle I love you, I don't want you to hurt because of me but I can't help but be next to you".

I gasped I don't know why he tells me a the time but I never expected it be isn't the best at expressing feelings. I joke "your lucky you woke up before Valentine's Day".

He laughs but holds his stomach like it hurts to laugh. I get worried "Would you please lay back down".

He moves my hair between my ears and stared into my eyes "stop worrying I'm fine!". I hug him he's taken back by this.

I moves over and lets me lay by him, he wraps his arm around me and I place my head gently on his chest. I could hear his heart beating fast he's so warm.

I whispered "how I missed this".

I woke up hours later I could hear him take swallow breathes. I look up into his eyes he looks like an angel while he's sleeping he's so calm.

Elijah waves me over to the hallway I slowly walk towards him. He has his hands in pockets "I'll allow you guys to date but you have to be present into society".

I back away from him and yell "I'm not going to be someone I am not. I don't wear dress and high heels so people could accept me as there own".

"I'm not saying that you have to go to every party and act like someone your not I'm asking that you present yourself to them".

"She's not doing it!" He screams. I didn't even notice when he got up from bed.

I hold on it him which makes his swat me away "I'm fine Elle". He walks back I could see his tight boxers from the back of his hospital robe. He looks back at me and smiles.

I wake back into the room he sits on the bed and I sit next to him. I reach over and grab his thighs, he winced. Then he leans and whispers "you like teasing me in a hospital when I can't do anything."

I don't say anything I'm mostly completely shocked with my mouth. He continues "just because we're in a hospital" he reaches over and grabs my inner thighs "and I'm hurt doesn't mean I won't fuck you right here".

I gasp but I don't say anything. He continues to rise up my thighs until he reaches my vagina opening. I close my legs but his fingers stay there, touches my vagina caressing it until I start to moan.

"We can't... your.." I stop mid sentence. I open my legs to allow for him to continue. I can't resist it and I'm grateful everyone left to sleep at home so it's just us too.

He pulls down my pants and knees in front of me with a grin on his face. I moan and move my head back he laughs "you missed me?".

"Hmm" I say trying to keep my mouth closed. The last thing I need is someone hearing us. He starts to move his tongue in circles on my clit. Moans escape my mouth as I desperately tried to keep quiet.

I tightly hold on to his hair I need to hold something, anything. I could feel myself building up inside I could tell he knew could too. He stopped and stand up in front of me.

I begged him "please don't stop!" He gave me Devilish smirk. I stood up in front of him he turned me around and I was facing the hospital bed. He slipped his length inside of my pussy I could feel his length throbbing in my vagina the anticipation was killing me.

He started going big strokes in and out of me. I could barely stand. He whispers into my ears his hot breath makes my body feel butterflies "Love you Elle".We both come undone.

I lean down to reach for my underwear that lay on the floor. He took my hands in his and lift me up. "We should go on a date?"

"What?!" I'm surprised we went on a date once and it didn't exactly end in the best way.

"We need to start getting better at communicating and I think a date would do that justice. Isn't that what people do on dates get to know each other?" He asks as if he has no idea.

I smile at the idea I finally feel like we're finally getting to a good place in our relationship. I still wonder why he wants to do this.

I laugh "yeah".

He places his hands around my naked body "I never had anyone I ever wanted to communicate with" and gives me a kiss on my forehead.

I start to turn red I feel my cheeks getting flushed. I pull away from him and get dressed it was only a matter of time before everyone came back. It was 6 am I looked out the window and the sun was coming up. We stayed up all night.

Blaine stared at me with a smile on his face but holding his chest. I don't know how he did what he did to me while hurt it's insane. He laid down and I laid next to him laying my head against his chest until I was fast asleep.