Craving him-The Secrets we keep

11

January 8,2021 Wednesday

Anthony slept with Madeline? That's crazy to even think about right now.  Anthony and Blaine are face to face together about to punch each other. I stand in front of them to make sure they don't. For people who didn't grow up like brother they sure do fight like brothers.

"Blaine look at me" he still looks at Anthony he's in fight mode  and I don't know if I could bring him out.

I repeat again "Blaine please-" still looks at Anthony like he wants to kill him.

Anthony looks at me "if you want to date him you have to leave all he does is hurt you and you go back to him. It's toxic and you can't see that"

"But I love him" I say as he is about to walk down the hall.

He replies "and that will be your downfall" and leaves.

I don't even know what to do anymore, what am I doing it's like no matter what to the situation just gets worse and worse. Maybe Anthony right and he will be my downfall, but I never felt love like his. I have laughed more than I ever had cried with Blaine. Like the time he tried to teach me how to drive.

I walk back into my room and slam the door shut. I don't know what to do if I go with Blaine that means my relationship with Anthony is nonexistent anymore. I love Blaine and Anthony and he can't make me choose between them.

There's a knock on the door when I open it my dad is standing there. He walks in and gives Blaine a look before standing in front of me.
"I came to say I want to be in your life Reyna"

I rolled my eyes "you don't get to leave and come back whenever you want. You left so stay gone"

Anthony walks into the kitchen "did you leave yet?" He says as he walks to where we are.

My dad ask "why is Elle leaving?"

"I told her to choose between Blaine and me. In tired of this back and forward shit with her. Your obviously not going to realize he's bad for you until eventually he hurts you by cheating"

Blaine goes in front of me and I hold his arm back. He yells "you don't know anything about our relationship. You guys judge us for going back together, but you don't know how we are with each other. I went back to school and I'm getting good grades, I stopped drinking and smoking.All because of her. I would never hurt her I am madly in love with her."

"Yeah, because she's busy fixing you she doesn't help herself Blaine. 24/7 hours in a day she's with you if not she's most likely thinking about you. Her whole life is basically you, she changed into a girl I barely recognize".

I know what he's saying is probably true but I don't care. I love Blaine and even if he can't say it I'll say it for the both of us. He's the best of both worlds, he's everything to me.

Another knock on the door as I go to get it I leave Anthony and my father are arguing about who I  going to stay with. Blaine interrupts there fight "why can't you guys just be supportive and you wonder why Elle didn't want to tell you about us look what's happening now?!"

"Arielle is her own person and makes her own decision she's an adult. One day she'll realize your nothing but a playboy and leave you" Anthony says.

Everything quiet now I wonder about Riley what she has to say. I bet if she could say something she would tell me the same thing as Anthony.

I walk up to Anthony "I'm not dumping Blaine because you don't approve of him and you shouldn't ask me too". I turn to my father "and I'm not moving in with you"

Anthony walks near me touching my arm. He whispers into my ear "when he cheats on you I don't want to hear it" and leaves.