Craving him-The Secrets we keep

09-Fights

January 7,2020, Tuesday

I stare at the ceiling I told Blaine to give me some space and I was surprised when he actual left. He didn't actual leave the house I heard him in the living room, I don't think he would actually leave.

My brother came in "I heard you went to see dad".

He comes and lays next to me staring at the ceiling. "Yes I did" I replied.

"What did he say?"

"Bullshit"

"Please tell me what he said" he begged. I don't know if telling him is the right thing. I mean I don't know if it's true.

"He told me that Elijah was your dad and that he had mom killed. It's crazy and I don't know if I believe myself"

He gets up and starts pacing around my room "what if it is true?" He asked. He's freaking out exactly how I knew he would. But he did have a right to know.

"We could always talk to Elijah" I say trying to calm him down.

He screams "and you think he would tell us the truth? Elijah is no good".

"I think it's our only option" he stares at me like I said to commit murder or something like that.

He takes and my arm and we walk to the door. Blaine immediately comes in our way. "Where are you going?"

"Blaine I need to know. So Blaine move out of my way before I hurt you" he threatens.

"I can't let you take Elle down the rabbit hole with you. She was already breaking down crying.".

"Yeah, because of you. You didn't think I seen you with Ally. What are you doing with her?".

"Nothing. I don't care about Ally I care about Arielle"

"Blaine I could do this" I put my hand to palm to his perfect cheekbones "I promise you I'm okay".

"Okay, but I'm coming with you" he grabs his jacket and walk out the door.

We decided to let Blaine drive it was safer that way. I sat in the front seat with Blaine, He held my hand the whole time, comforting me. I look back at Anthony he's fidgeting with his fingers. I wish there was something I could say to make this better for him.

We finally get to Blaine's house Anthony immediately rushed out the door and into the house. "shit!. Shit!. Shit!" I repeat while hitting the dashboard.

Blaine stops me by holding my wrist, I start crying tears falling down my face rapidly. "Arielle it's okay, you can't save everyone and your going to kill yourself trying".

"I should have never told him I just couldn't lie-"

He interrupts "it's better that he knows from you then from anyone else. You can't protect him from this okay?".

I lay my head on his chest without thinking I jumped on top of him. I whisper into his ear "I want you" I start kissing his neck where the tattoos are leaving marks all over it.

He pulls back stopping me "is this really what you want?" He asked.

I nod my head "yes. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I want to feel your love, fill me with your love".

I start to kiss him neck again pulling on his necklace. I start rubbing myself again I could feel his length hardening against me and he starts to groan. I wrap my hands around his necks and I stare into his eyes. I starts to unbutton his shirt, he stares down at my tiny hands.

He looks back up at me and kisses me. Someone knocks on the window and I jump off of his lap into my seat, It was Anna. She was wearing a sun dress and she dyed her hair a dirty blonde color.

She covered she eyes when she seen the marks on Blaine skin "I didn't mean to interrupt. I thought you guys were coming in".

"We are. Right now" I replied.

We both get out of the car I'm hoping she doesn't say anything about the party. The last thing we need is to fight. I walk into the house and into Elijah study. All I hear is...

"how could you do that to my mother?" and I ran into the room. I looked between them wondering what was going on.

Anthony answered my question like he was reading my mind "he's my dad and he killed our mom. It's all true" he's hysterical. I think Elijah finally broke him.

Why am I even surprised? Of course Elijah would do something this bad, I was so dumb not to see it.

Elijah looks at Blaine when he sees the marks on him he comments "leaving your mark I see?".

I roll my eyes at him "you mind your business" I say back.

Anthony is sitting in one of the couches near the fireplace. I wonder what's going through his head right now. I wish I could help him but nothing I say could to would make him feel better.

Blaine cuddles me in his arms no one is saying anything. Blaine and Anthony are siblings and no one is saying anything. Finally Anthony gets up "I want nothing to do with you Elijah. You hurt my family and nearly destroyed us. Your are nothing to me" and walks out.

We walk behind him I don't know wether to give him space or talk to him. He's has been there for me so I should be there for him. I catch him he was in the kitchen about to head to the door and grab his arm "I can't imagine how you feel-" I start.

"Your right you can't. You can't fix everyone so stop trying Arielle. This is my thing to deal with so let me deal with it on my own. Stop getting into everyone's business and remember you started this when you'd started fucking Blaine. If you wouldn't have started fucking him we wouldn't be in this situation. But no you wanted to be the one to change the bad boy and couldn't leave well enough alone".

I hit me like a stab to the chest, he thinks what happened is my fault. Is it?. Blaine runs up to me and pulls me into the biggest hug. I started crying tears running down his suit. He whispers into my ear "it is not your fault Arielle he's just hurting right now".

"It is my fault I chose love over my own family. If I wouldn't have let my feelings for you cloud my judgement we wouldn't be here"

He puts both hands on my shoulders  and bends down to look me directly into my eyes "do you honestly believe that?, "he asked. I knew  the words that would hurt him.

"Yes"  I breathed.

He walked out of the room into his own angry of course. I close my eyes I am so stupid, why didn't I figure this out before?. Getting involved with Blaine meant getting involved with his family which is never a good idea and he would never leave his family.
I think moving for college was the best option for me with or without Blaine.

Anna walks in "what a predicament your in" she jokes.

I hit the counter with my fist "I know it just seems to get worse as it goes. I love Blaine but it seems like the world is trying to pull us apart like the universe is against us".

"I don't think it's the universe, Blaine pulls back when things get hard it's kind of his thing. But so do you, you blame Blaine like your trying to punish yourself for loving him. Just be with Blaine if you want and fuck the world".