Craving him-The Secrets we keep

16- Hospital P.2

It's Tuesday I have been at the hospital since yesterday with Anthony. Blaine is still in coma, everyone has been trying to keep it together.

I sit in with Blaine holding his hand Elijah comes into the room. "I think you should go to school Arielle being here like this is only going to fuel a depression".

"you want me to go to school when Blaine is in a coma?" I asked him practically yelled at him.

"Blaine would want you to go to school and you know that" he yells back. Yeah I do know that Blaine wouldn't have wanting me to sit here crying for him.

"Blaine would want me by his side" I replied. He shook his head as to say she's so hard headed.

Riley walked in hearing the whole conversation "you know Blaine would have wanted you to go to school. He loves you he wouldn't want you to suffer like this".

I feel my face turning red and I fight the urge to yell at Riley. But I doesn't work. I lash out at them "you don't know suffering if it hit you in the face. I hold his hand and it's ice cold and the Rose color from his lips has disappeared. You don't know what it feels like for someone you care about is half way out the door. I lost my mother and I lost my friends and my brother I can't lose Blaine!"

I break down to the floor sobbing both Riley and Elijah lift me up into a chair. Riley knees in front of me and I cover my eyes like I'm embarrassed "I promise you Arielle, you can make it through this. But sitting next to Blaine
Torturing yourself. This isn't your fault And I swear if he wakes up Elijah will call you".

I look at Elijah standing next to Riley in a sweater with a suit and tie. He gives me a sympathy look and I nod following Riley out the doors. I take one look back at Blaine he's on ventilator because he's getting worse they put it on him today early in the morning.

I make my way down the hall a little part of me feels guilty for leaving him. Riley says "there's actually something I want to talk to you about"

I stop in the front of the hospital door entrance she plays with her bracelet I can tell she's nervous. I car comes speeding next to us and Oliver jumps out his car "are you okay? I can came as soon as I heard. I'm so sorry".

I give him a pretend smile every one worrying about me is not making this any better for me. It's like there waiting for me to break down. "I'm fine Oliver really".

He gives me a nod, he looks at Riley and she turns red. Is that what she was going to yell me? She was dating Oliver?. Riley walked me to the car making sure that she stood by my side while Oliver and her were lost in a conversation. I shouldn't be like this he has died.

I read my book as we pulled into school students staring at me and giving me mixed stares. I walk into school with my head down and Oliver and Riley walk behind me. I am glad to be graduating in a couple months, maybe my life would have some type of normalcy.

Riley and Oliver have a conversation while I'm picking out my books from my locker. Riley asks me "Are you still going to prom?".

I never thought about prom I didn't ask him because dances aren't really Blaine's thing. I wonder if I would have asked him would he have gone?.

"Um.. idk I think I should wait for Blaine to get out the hospital. Also Blaine isn't a school dance person.

"Yeah but he is an Arielle person" she jokes "He'll do it for you with no questions asked".

She's right Blaine would have done it for me if I really wanted to go. We spent so much time being on and off and arguing that I didn't realize that the good weight out the bad.