Craving him-The Secrets we keep

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February 15,2021, Saturday

I woke up on Blaine's chest I could hear his heart beating fast. I smiled and looked up into his eyes he said "good morning" while he's eyes are closed.

I lifted my head up in surprise "were you awake this whole time".

"I couldn't sleep last night was crazy" he says.

I think back to last night. I stood in the roof top of the limousine and felt the wind hit my face as the driver drove. I remember him watching me with the biggest smile on his face from the other roof top.

I screamed from the other side "this is amazing".

I was surprised when he made a stop at a beach. I didn't notice he had a picnic basket hidden under the seat. He grabbed my hand and ran me into the sand. I took off my black heels and stepped into the sand. I felt weird under my feet.

He laid the blanket and we both sat eating the food that was in the basket. After I wanted to put my feet in the water, I tried to beg him to go with me but obviously he didn't want to. I dipped my feet in the water my dress hitting the water.

To my surprise he came into the water and started to splash me with it. We had a water fight and he lifted me up and ran with me deeper into the water before dunking me into it.

Good thing it wasn't too deep and I could stand. He pushed my hair from face and stared into my eyes. After a minute he kissed me and said "I won't let anything separate us, I mean it".

He ask me "what's wrong?" Now he's sitting up watching me as I dozed off.

"Nothing, I'm fine Blaine" I smile up at him but doesn't convince him.

Now I worried him he reminds me "we're supposed to be communicating with each other"

"Like you have done it either" I say back quickly.

"What do you want me to fucking say?" He yelled.

"I just want to have a conversation without it starting an argument" I state.

"Okay go" he says. I don't trust this won't start an argument I'm done with fighting it seems like all we do.

"I want to move to Rhode Island" before I could finish my sentence he moved away from the bed and stood up.

"I don't want to hear this-" he waves his hands around like he's surrendering.

"you need to hear this Blaine I want you to understand why I'm making this decision".

"No" he yells "I won't hear of this if you want to leave that's on you but no, I won't be coming with you" he leaves and slams the door behind him.

Shit!

We went from a good night right to back to arguing. Anna knocks on the door she comes in. She looks around "where's Blaine?" She asks.

"That answer is complicated" I laugh.

She sits next to me and brings breakfast pancakes with strawberries on top and bacon and eggs " I believe everything will work out they way you guys want it".

"Not if Blaine decides not to come with me to Rhode Island

"Do you honestly believe things won't work between you and him if you live him behind?" She asked.

"Oh I know it, I think the distance will separate us for good. We spent this whole year breaking up and getting back together to be separated again, I think distance won't work for either of us".

"I think Blaine believe your trying to leave him and that scares him because he loves you I think more than he never thought he would".

"I asked him to come with me, he refused" I say.