Craving him-The Secrets we keep

10- Back To Blaine

January 8, Wednesday

It's Wednesday morning I haven't talked to Blaine since last night. I know I shouldn't have said what I said but I was mad and I know it wasn't excuse. It's like we always find new ways to hurt each other.

I wake up and find my brother not in my house. I wondered where he was probably driving around. I can't imagine what's going on in his head right now. I wish I could help him.

Anthony walked into the door he looked horrible his eyes are puffy and he looked like dirty. As soon as he seen me he looked around like he was looking for someone else. "Where's Blaine?, he never leaves you by yourself".

We got into a fight yesterday he's angry at me. He comes up to me and starts to hug me tightly. He start sobbing "I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that yesterday I was angry. I shouldn't haven't yelled at you".

"It's fine, you had every right to be angry you were lied to your whole life" he gives me a little smile.

"I'm sorry you and Blaine are fighting, Blaine is complicated" I smiled like yeah I know, I probably knew better than anyone.

I took a deep breath in I felt much better. I sat in my room and looked at my computer waiting for my college application. I have been waiting for months to receive my acceptance letter.

I hear a knock on my door and when I went to open it, it was Riley. She immediately gave me a hug "your brother called me, are you okay?" She's rushing her words like she's trying to get all the words out at once.

"I'm fine Riley, it's just a lot to process"

"Tell me what happened?"

"Well Blaine and Anthony are brothers, I went to dinner with my dad and My dad says that my mom was killed by Blaine's father"

"Wait what?" She's shocked, she goes to sit on the bed to take everything in.

"Yeah, I had a crazy month" I give a little laugh. She walks me into my bed and sits me down next to her.

"You and Blaine's always work it out and this time is no different. I have never seen Blaine not be by your side for a long time. He will come back" she said.

There was a sound coming from my computer I immediately got up and looked at my computer. It was an email from the university of Rhode Island.

I looked at Riley "come and do this I can't do it" I said closing my eyes.

She says "ready?"

I replied "ready"

She click to open it and starts squealing "you got accepted to the university of Rhode Island Arielle I'm so proud" she hugs me.

All I wanted to do was call Blaine and tell him but I couldn't. I turned sad why am I thinking about him right now, I should be happy I mean I got accepted to college.

"Riley could you take me to Blaine 's house" I ask her.

She looks at me with a sad look at her face "I don't think that's a good idea" she says.

Riley please-"

She sits me on the bed "you can't go running to  Blaine every time you miss him, it shows that he has power over you and he'll used that power as an excuse to get able to leave you again".

I know she's right about everything, I don't know what it is about him that makes me miss him and his touch. It's like I can't breathe if it's not next to me, when did I let myself fall so deep into the rabbit hole?.

"Your right as always, I-I-I just don't know it's like he controls my whole being like when we're apart he takes a piece of me with him"

She hugs me "I know how easy it is to get wrapped in Blaine. But remember you don't need him, you want him. He's not a necessity to live or breathe, I know it feels like it but it's not"

I hug her back "I know".

I walk into the kitchen to get for food from the fridge. When I turned back there was Blaine sitting on one of the spin chairs. I rolled my eyes and made my way to Riley in my room.

He grabbed my arm and held me in between his legs. "Why are you mad at me your the one who yelled at me".

"Your right but I'm tired of the back and forth and the fighting. I don't want to wonder if your with Ally. I'm tired of all of it Blaine. It's like I can't breathe when I'm not with you and I don't want it to feel that way anymore".

"You think you feel that way about me, I think about you 24/7. It's drives me crazy seeing you with any other man ever for any reason and I want to kill any one who ever touches you"

I lean in and kiss him giving into him once again I can't resist even though everything is telling me too. I pull back and he kissed me again. I wrap my hands around his neck and make out right there.

I hear Riley and footsteps coming from the living room until Riley and Anthony were standing in the kitchen with us.

I pull away from his lips and tried to move from in between his legs. But he closed them tightly so I couldn't leave and held me by my hips.

They both look at my with anger on their faces crossing there arms together. Anthony looks at Riley "I knew you would go to him. How many times are you going to do this before you guys realize you guys are toxic for each other".

Blaine lets me go and walks to Anthony I'm afraid of what might happen. "You don't get to stay things about our relationship when you slept with Madeline, while we were dating"

I gasped did Anthony really do that to Blaine. How would he ever forgive him for something like that.