Craving him-The Secrets we keep

33-Hospital Again

Arielle

March 10,2021

Oliver held my hand as to give me support. I can feel my legs about to drop at the sign of him, I'm frozen in place.

He walks toward me and tries to take my hand away from Oliver but I yank my hand away before he could touch it. I feel the breeze hitting my body and hear all the sounds of people talking around me and cars driving away.

"As soon as we break up your with him?" He yells pointing his finger at him.

"He offered to bring me home it's none of your business I'm not yours anymore" I replied I knew it would hurt him or did it seems like he didn't love me at all.

He looked hurt by my words. "You know damn fucking well he is still after you. That's why you still hang out with him".

I walk up to him and scream in his face. "It's nun of your fucking business. You caring about ended when you decided to cheat on me. I'm not your responsibility anymore".

"Elle- please you know we were never going to work especially because of my family".

"If your so convinced that we're not meant for each other then why are you here?"

He runs up to me and bring me closer to him with his hands on my face. "I needed to see you".

I refuse to look him in eye so I look at the parking lot behind him. "You lost the privilege of having me the moment you cheated".

I yanked my arm away and walked away fast. I could hear Oliver trying to catch me to me. I stop at his car I close my eyes to stop myself from crying.

"Arielle are you okay?" He says out of breath. And tears fall from my eyes. Somehow I thought I could move past this but I can't.  I can't believe he showed up here. I'm so angry I can't breathe.

Oliver touches my shoulders and I shake it off. "Can you just take me home?".

He nods and we both get in the car. He looks over to me every five seconds trying to see if I'm going to fall apart. I think that I had the right to let myself fall apart but I can't I need to be stronger than this.

I ran into my room I took the necklace and the note and ran back outside. I threw it at outside of my room and I ran back inside. I somehow missed the part where he was playing me like some guitar. I knew I shouldn't have trusted him from the beginning yet I let him in.

I grabbed stuff from my desk and I threw it around my room. Chair, desk, paper, pencils files organizer all over the floor. I thought this would make me feel better. I was hyperventilating there was this feeling in my gut we're my pain was and I would gave anything to make it stop.

I dropped to the floor all I wanted to do was turn it off not feel a thing anymore. Why am I in so much pain?.

My brother walked in on me banging my head on the floor sobbing. He tried to stop me but it was like I got super strength.

I woke up in the hospital my brother was next to me "heyyy, how you feeling?" He asks as I lift my head to look at him.

"Like I want amnesia" he chuckles and rushes to my side.