Craving him-The Secrets we keep

31- Thinking

March 9, 2021

Blaine

I can tell Arielle upset with me she had been for the last few days. She got up from the bed today without saying one word or kissing me on the cheek like she always did.

I walk into the bathroom without knocking because I knew if I did knock she wouldn't let me in. She was putting on her skirt she already had her shirt and jacket on.

I walked behind her, I put my hands on her thighs. She yelled "Blaine we can't do this right now I have school". Yet she runs herself against me.

I raise my hands higher up under her skirt. I look at her in the mirror she's hitting down on his lips. I kiss her neck and a moan falls from her lips but she instantly covers her mouth.

"I know we had a fight Arielle but what I am doing is for your safety".

She pushed me back and I hit the glass door. "Keeping it from me is not keeping me safe Blaine".

"Arielle please-"

She holds her hand to stop me for saying more. "Just take me to school Blaine I don't want to talk about this anymore".

She leaves the bathroom and I follow behind her. Anthony closes her eyes as if he seen something nasty "I will never get used to this will I?".

Arielle gives him an apologetic smile. I wrap my arm around Arielle as we walked towards the door and into the car.

When we got to Arielle school I gave her a kiss on the mouth. She didn't smile or look at me the whole time we were in the car. She rushed out of the car and to Riley.

I waved at Riley but she glared at me. I guess Arielle told Riley about it.

I drove to my school as soon as I got there Anthony walked up to me. "I know your dating my sister but please don't have sex in the bathroom".

I pat his shoulder. "I'm sorry bro. We weren't doing anything in the bathroom I was just getting her from the bathroom".

He gave me a suspiciously look. I can tell he thinks I'm lying. "Okay but anyways how was the family dinner with your father".

I told Anthony I was going to a family dinner with my father he doesn't know it was with Madeline us alone. No one knows. "It was normal he sits there and he yells at me about every thing I do wrong".

He pulls me into a hug. "I am so sorry Blaine. You know you can come live with us anytime".

"Actually-" We both stopped in our tracks. "I was thinking of moving out into a house with Arielle. I was going to ask her if she wanted to move in with me"

I can tell he was in shock, I am in shock. I can't believe I said those words out loud. I thought about it but hearing it out loud was completely different. I never moved in with a girl but I wanted this with her. "Wow this is. Wow" he replies.

He smiles "I know this is crazy but Arielle is important to me. I won't let her down".

"I know she is Blaine. I never seen you like this before. I like this side of you" and he pulls me into another hug.

The bell rings and we head into our classes. Anthony walked me into my class and went to his. Madeline was in the class I rushed front of her. "What the fuck are you doing here?" I yelled.

"I enrolled to your school now we can go to school together".

I grabbed her arm and rushed her out of the classroom. "How many times do I have to tell you that we will never be together?".

She brushes her hands on my chest. "Come on you don't believe that do you? Your dad wants us together and whatever your dad wants he gets".

"Not this!. This is my life" I point to myself. "My dad doesn't tell me what I do with my love life".

"Did you even tell her that we had dinner?" she asks. She already knew the answer she just wanted me to beg her.

I stayed quiet and that was all the proof she needed. "Arielle doesn't know does she?" She laughs.

I look down at my feet. "And your not going to tell her either" I threaten.

"You know she's going to break up with you if she finds out. Yet you keep it from her why?".

"Because I don't want her lose her she's important to me. I have been saying this all along and you don't listen".

Her expression on her face changes. It was like she finally took it in. She hits me in my chest. "Arielle and you are completely different and that's why she'll leave you".

She walks back into class swing her hips. I hit the wall why is everything getting so complicated. Why did I think bringing Arielle into my life was the best thing for her?

She didn't give me much of a choice when she smiled up at me it was like she was my angel coming to take me away from all the bad. I tried to fight it but the truth is I was in love with her since the beginning I just never let myself believe it.

She's so full of happiness there's no darkness that proceeds her or maybe I'm wrong and she's just as fulled with darkness I am and That's why we're perfect together because we're both fucked up in our ways but when we come together we light each other up.

Madeline and my dad are ruining my happiness it's like a battle that will never be won by me because I don't mean anything to my father I'm just an heir to his company.

It's what I always been and maybe that's all I am.

Arielle

I walked into Blaine's house and Elijah was in the kitchen cooking. He turned to look at me. "Ah Ms King I would say it's nice to see you but it's not".

"Same to you" I gave him a fake smile. "Is Blaine in his room I haven't seen him since yesterday?".

He laughs. "Blaine is in his room you know where it is".

I walk upstairs I didn't understand why Blaine didn't pick me up from school or answer my calls. What was going on with him lately? I knew his dad was pressuring him for us to break up but I didn't realize it was this bad.

I opened his door Blaine was laying on his bed and Madeline was sitting next him staring into his eyes. They both looked up at me. "What is this? You don't answer my calls and now your hanging out with Madeline?" I yell.

He grabs my hand and takes me into the hallway. I yank away from him "what is this?".

"Madeline and I are just hanging out Arielle. Nothing is happening".

"Your lying you hate her".

"I don't hate her your being dramatic" he lays on the wall like he doesn't want to hear a thing I'm saying.

"What happened to you you were fine this morning?".

He walked over to me and screamed in my face. "Nothing happened Arielle!, god you make everything about yourself".

I tried to fight the tears that threaten to fall from my eyes. "Did you sleep with her?".

He looks away from me and looks up at the ceiling. "Yes I did".