you're my drug/ mattia polibio

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( play song )

- y/n 

the movie finally ended but i couldn't focus on it because mattia was the only thing that was on my mind . i grabbed all of my things to go back home . 

i put my blanket over my shoulder . ale let out the loudest yawn in my ear . 

" shut up with your loud ass mouth " i said clearly annoyed . " shut up , im tired " he said back . i chuckled a bit and began to walk out . " im still hungry " i tell ale and he smiles lightly . 

" pregnancy hormones huh?" he says and i giggle a bit . 

" im gonna get a pretzel , ill be back " i told everyone and walked off . 

" hi can i get one pretzel please " i said . " add a blue raspberry slushi on it " 

" coming right up " the cashier said . 

10 minutes later she came back and gave me my stuff . i took a sip of my slushi and walked out to my car . 

" she knows i love her , but i just feel like -" mattia says . " you feel like what exactly? " i stop in my tracks . " oh okay " 

mattias face was red and his eyes were red from all the crying . yes i am hurt seeing him this way but he deserves it . he doesn't deserve anything from me right now . 

" hahahah you loved the movie right ?" alvaro chuckled scratching the back of his neck . 

" nope , i couldnt really focus on the movie. there was to many lies going around " i nodded taking a sip of my drink . 

yup mattia was talking about how he loves me the whole movie . he was being so fucking annoying , i dont know why he gets to feel sad. 

" oh bullshit dont even start with me " mattia said madly . " why cant i start with you mattia ? WHY TF not ?" i said walking closer to him . he better not act like the fucking victim in this . 

" YOU broke up with me , so shut the fuck up ?" he raised his voice . " guys lets not do this again "ale said worriedly . 

i laughed , " excuse me ? dont play fucking victim now , you left me for 3 months and ignored me for two weeks before telling me , what the fuck did you expect?" i said getting a little bit closer . 

" i didnt want to even hurt you " he cried . " but you did mattia , you fucking did . i blamed myself for two weeks thinking it was my fault just to find out you were going to some weak ass soccer camp " i shook my head . 

" mattia , i love you . you let our friends keep a secret away from me , when you knew i would support you in it . so this is not my fault , its all yours . " 

" well that weak ass soccer shit has done way more for me than you ever did " he said inches away from me . 

" wow , fuck you mattia , i hate you " i said slapping him in his face . ive wanted to do that for a long time . 

" y/n please calm down " kai said . 

his face soften as he realized what he said , " i didnt mean it y/n" he said quickly . " yes you did , if you didn't you wouldn't have said it " i said causing my voice to crack . 

he pulled me in as i was about to walk away . he puts is arm around my neck and tightens his grip . i hit his chest consistently . 

" dont you dare touch me " i said hitting his chest . " i fucking hate you , i hate you , and all i did was ever love you " i yelled . 

i continue to hit him in his chest until the boys pull me off of him . 

" y/n please stop " kairi said pulling me away . i got out of his grip but alvaro caught me by my arm . " let me goo" i screamed 

" Y/N STOP YOUR FUCKING PREGNANT " ale shouted . 

" wait what?" kairi said .

" what?" meliyah said . 

they finally let me go , kairi and the girls looked at each other . 

we all paused and it went silent . the cats out of the bag now . wow .

" your pregnant ?" lelani asked with tears in her eyes and i just nod . " there is no point of hiding it anymore." i shrugged with tears in my eyes . the girls walked over to me and held my hand . 

" its his ?" katie asked quietly 

"  yes that idiot over there is the father " i pointed to mattia .  

i heared footsteps walk over to me . " are you really ?" he said in a sad tone . 

i unbutton my jeans jacket and reveal my bump . " omg " meliyah whispered. she touched my belly and started to cry .

" why didnt you tell me ?" he asked . 

" fuck you" i say pulling the keys out of my purse . i felt myself being dragged again. " mattia stop fucking tugging on me i dont want to be any where near you " i scream . 

" I DONT FUCKING CARE Y/N , IM NOT LEAVING YOU AGAIN SO GIVE ME THE FUCKING KEYS " . he cried . " i made a promise " 

" yeah well you broke that promise ." i said . 

" im not gonna argue with you , let go " mattia said . 

i threw my keys at him and walked to the backseat of my car . i dont even want to breathe the same air as him but here we are . 

i hear everyone say bye silently and i wave back , i got into the car and just stared out the window. 

mattia got into the car and looked into the rearview mirror to look at me . i cried quietly so he wouldnt hear me and he began to drive home . i dont even want to look at his face.

i just closed my eyes and let the tears fall .

a/n 

quick message - this book is coming to an end soon but i am making a sequel. not gonna lie this made me cry a little and i hope yall did too , but we aint finish . i know you guys are happy for the consistant updates . yes some of these were in my draft and some of them i wrote last night while watching avatar the last airbender. 

i love you guys and hope you stay safe . please drink water and eat . i love you bb<3