Flying Bisons [2] Bolin

Chapter 38

I sit on the bench overlooking the pond that Bamir brought me to. I needed a place to cool off and although it makes me sad to think this is where Bamir ended our friendship, I can't help but find it peace here. It's quiet and secluded; it's the kind of place that makes all of your worries cease to exist just by being there. It's like the spot in Republic City however, here I can't watch the dragonflies. I miss watching them dance over the water.

"Can I join you?" A voice asks behind me. I tense slightly when I recognise who it belongs to and I don't make any move to acknowledge her. She hesitates when I don't respond, but I sense her move towards the bench and sit next to me. "I would like to apologise for how I behaved earlier." Su says and I feel her eyes lock onto me.

"Okay." I say, keeping my gaze on the pond.

"I didn't realise I was upsetting you by suggesting you teach Korra heat bending, so I am sorry." Suyin says. I still feel her eyes on me, but I can't look at her. I'm not sure whether I like her or not. She seems like a nice enough person on the outside, but she pushes things on people which I don't like.

"Okay." I mutter as I cross my arms over my chest. Suyin sighs in sadness and she places a hand on my arm which makes me tense even more.

"Ulazu, please help me understand why I have upset you." She says.

"Why? So you don't have a guilty conscience?" I snap. She removes her hand from my arm and as soon as she does I inhale and close my eyes for a moment. Great, now I've upset her. This is why people should just leave me alone when I need to cool down.

"No, it's because I don't understand. You have invented a new style of bending yet you don't use it. If my mother didn't use metal bending when she invented it, we wouldn't have the world that we do today. I just feel as though you're not letting yourself reach your full potential." Suyin stresses. I let my eyes snap open and I finally turn to meet her eye. Her expression is consumed with sadness and confusion which ignites my anger within me again.

"How does everyone know I can heat bend when I didn't tell anyone other than my friends?" I ask angrily as I glare at her. Her eyes widen at my question and I feel my jaw clench.

"After Harmonic Convergence, word seemed to spread about what happened. Everyone has heard about your bending, I mean, it's truly magnificent." She says offering me a smile. I stand up from the bench and feel my body shake with anger.

"Magnificent? I'll never teach someone how to do what I did because of people like you!" I practically scream. She thinks what I did to those soldiers was good? She really thinks it's good to be able to kill people with such ease? I march away from the bench knowing that I can't stay there anymore. Not when I'm this angry.

"You might have hurt people, but you also saved people with your bending." Suyin calls after me. I scoff and turn to face her again. "You saved a boy from a collapsing building." She reminds me. My eyes narrow on her and I ball my fists causing my nails to dig into my palms painfully.

"And how are you so sure that the next person who learns heatbending will only use it to help? You don't seem to realise that when I hurt those people I didn't know what was happening. If I did, if I wanted them dead, they would be in seconds!" I growl and I feel tears start to fall involuntarily. Suyin's face drops as she starts to understand why I'm so adamant to not teach Korra. "So, don't you dare pressure me into heatbending, and don't you dare pressure me into teaching someone else!" I snarl before storming away.

I wipe my face as I make my way through the gardens quickly, not really sure where I'm going in the darkness, but I don't care. As long as I'm alone. My body trembles in anger and I don't know what to do about it. How could Suyin even suggest I help others heat bend if she knew what I did in the South Pole? Surely it should be obvious. Who would want me to heat bend when I did something that bad?