this story contians :[ mental hospital,mentions of suicide attempts, self harm]
i have been in and out of this hospital since i was 13 i'm now 19 i've never had more than a year out, i hate going there it's nothing but white walls, broken kids and useless therapy sessions that do nothing
the first time i was sent here it was a week after my 13th birthday my parents aw my cuts along the top of my arms decided to send me away, all the times after that were more self harm and suicide attempts that obviously failed
i was on the way to the hospital now 'well, y/n we're here, hope you get out soon and you stay out' the driver said helping me out of the van,
i smiled as i saw riley walk up to me 'here again y/n?' she asks disbelief after seeing me comeback and leave about 4 time now i laugh and nod 'yeah i guess i am' i say hugging her i was getting taken to my new room i followed the staff member as riley walked with me 'you know there's a new therapist' she said all giddy 'really? who?' i ask not really caring 'some chick named...billie i think' she adds as we get to my room 'hm cool, well see you later riley' i saw walking into my room 'well y/n stay out of trouble, uh and you got a private therapy session in an hour' the nurse says before closing the door and walking away
i get changed into my white uniform and climbed into the bed and layed down, i quickly fell asleep
i was woken up by loud knocking on my door 'y/n it's time for your therapy session you're already 15 minuets late 'i don't give a fuck!' i shouted sitting up 'it's mandatory that you go, now get up before i have to open the door' the nurse said back calmly 'i'm not fucking going!' i shouted back 'y/n. you know you have to go we have been over this many times before' the nurse states ' i don't want to have security carry you there' she adds 'i said i'm not going, so either get the bitch to come here or i'm not doing it' i say grabbing my pillow and holding it to myself, i hear the nurse sigh and walk away i smirk to myself thinking i got out of the stupid therapy
after a few minuets i look up to see someone walking through my door, i groan and saty sat on my bed 'y/n, right? im billie' she introduces herself 'i know now get the fuck out i say looking away from her 'it's mandato-' i cut her off 'listen i dont give a fuck if its mandatory or not, i don't see a point in these stupid therapy sessions so just leave' i say making eye contact with her 'y/n just because you don't like them doesn't mean that i will stop trying to help so stop being a bitch about it and lets get started' billie says sternly looking at me
i look at her in shock and look away 'whatever..' i mumble quietly as she walks over and sits on the edge of my bed 'why don't we introduce ourselves?' billie suggests looking at me, i sigh and look at her 'okay fine...i mean you probably know everything about me already' i say relaxing myself a bit ' then i'll go, billie, im 19 and-' i cut her off and move closer slightly 'your 19? why are you here?' i ask looking at her confused 'first don't interrupt me when i'm talking, second why does it matter?' she asks looking at me 'sorry for asking' i say quietly
----at the end of the session--
'now that wasn't so bad was it y/n?' billie asks smiling i shake my head answering no 'now are going to come to the sessions from now on?' she asks moving closer to me i nod, billie places her hand on my cheek and looks at me 'good girl' she says before standing up and walking over to the door 'i expect too see you in my office tomorrow' she says before walking out
riley walks in my room and sits next to me 'you're all reddd' she says laughing 'i am not' i say covering my face 'oooo you like billie!' she shouts jumping up 'fuck no i do not!' i shout back pulling her down 'mmhmm whatever you say y/n/n'[your nick name] i glare at her before moving to the back of the bed and pulling my knees up to my chest 'i do not like that motherfucker' i say simply before resting my head on my knees
