10 am
i woke up and looked around my room, my bed felt so cold and empty, i looked over expecting to see billie sleeping peacefully, but to no surprise she wasn't there, i thought i'd atleast be able to comprehend the break up by now, i wish she wold still talk to me atleast, but no, she left, shut me out of her life because of a stupid fight, i sighed to myself bringing my knees up to my chest, i felt tears form at the brim of my eyes, i wanted nothing more than to fall into her arms and sob, but i had to fuck everything up
i shook my head and stood up, i walked into the bathroom and washed my face before walking back into my bedroom to get dressed
once i had finished i picked up my phone and went straight to instagram, i had gotten so used to seeing billies and her families posts, but they all blocked me, well apart from claudia she always asks how i am, after all me and billie did meet through claudia, i was sixteen and billie was seventeen
i walked up to claudia and finneases house, my sister was there with caudia, i knocked on the door, finneas engulfed me in a hug and welcomed me in side 'you here to see your sister?' he asked leading me to where she was i nodded and followed him up the stairs, i'd been here before, but i never spoke to anyone other than my sister or claudia, finneas opened the door and walked in, i followed behind, then stood next to him with my hands in my pockets 'y/n? what are you doing here?' my sister asked standing up 'dad forgot to five me money for dinner before he left for work..' i mumbled as i stood there awkwardly 'okay..uh i'll take you to get some dinner later then' she said standing up ' i need to go call dad' she said walking out of the room, i stood there silently waiting for something, anything to happen to get me out f this awkward situation, i felt someone sling their arm around my shoulder and tensed up 'billie, this is y/n' claudia said after clearing her throat 'y/n, cute' she said looking over at me, she was a little bit taller than me, i blushed slightly and relaxed, my sister came back up to us 'come on y/n lets go' she said claudia pouted 'we haven't finished filming yet' my sister looked at billie 'billie can you take her to get some food please?' she asked, billie nodded and we walked away.
i felt tears fall down my face just remembering our first interaction, i looked down at my phone to see messages from jacob, i sighed then saw him walk into my room 'hey y/n-..are you okay?' he asked softening his tone slightly and walking over to me, i shook my head and stood there as he wrapped his arm around me 'i fucked up really bad this time..' i said quietly as more tears fell 'she's gone, and it's all because i was stupid' i added as the tears fell faster
we stood there for a few minuets as he held me while i cried, i had finally calmed down and pulled 'shit, now i gotta go wash my face again' i groaned before walking into the bathroom to clean my face, i walked and saw jacob laying on my bed, i cleared my throat and he sat up 'good you're back, get some money we are getting you some desperately needed retail therapy' he said smiling
1 pm
i had 3 bags of clothes, my mood was lifted, and i had forgotten about billie, billie... billie.. 'y/n, you okay?' jacob asked noticing me spacing out 'uh yeah, food?' i asked rhetorically 'ugh finally im starvinggg' he groaned as we started walking towards a a cafe that was close by 'y/n hurry your short ass up i want food' he said stopping infront of me 'fuck off your like 6'6 just keep walking idiot' i replied dragging him by the wrist to cafe
we walked in and i sat down while jacob went to order our drinks, i pulled up my phone and saw a picture of me and billie together, i stared at the picture, it was of us at the beach just before she threw me in water
'y/n come here!' billie shouted waving for me to come over to the water, i shook my head laughing as i sat up on the towel, she started running over to me, i sat and waited for her to get to me, laughing, once she reached me she pulled me up onto my feet, she picked me up bridal style, finneas quickly took a photo before billie started walking back to water with me in her arms, i put my arms around her neck 'billie don't you fucking dare' i shouted as she got closer to the water 'or what?' she asked walking into the water, she stopped when she was was far in 'billie don't' i said again looking down into the water, before i knew it was out of billies arms and coldness took over my body, i quickly got to my feet again and climbed onto billies back 'your an ass' i said quietly as i held onto her
'excuse me?' i heard as someone tapped my shoulder 'uh we have that table reserved' another voice said 'its for my sister-' they treid to add before i cut them off 'you don't have to explain, i'll move' i said blankly before getting up, i walked over to jacob, he handed me a cup of iced coffee 'thanks' i mumbled
billies pov
i just released my album, we decided to go out to a quiet place to celebrate, finneas and claudia decided to go early to make sure the place was empty for the rest of us getting there, i had just finished getting changed when my phone started ringing, i picked it up 'hey fin what's up?' i asked as i put my shoes on 'we just saw y/n' he said '..y/n? did she look okay?' i asked walking out to my car 'sort off i guess.. she was staring at a picture of you two, from the beach' he added it was quiet for a while 'so uh is the place ready?' i ask trying to forget about y/n 'yeah you can come now everything's ready bil' he said before hanging up, with that over i started driving
3 pm
we finished up in the cafe, the team had already left along with mom and dad, it was just me, finneas, claudia and zoe, we all decided to leave now, of course i was the last to leave, again, i walked outside and saw y/n and jacob sat on a bench, i heard jacob sigh, the all of a sudden he crossed hims arms 'y/n you need to fucking eat, this happens every time you go through a break, she's gone. okay, you need to accept that!' he shouted as y/n held her head down, did i really hurt her that bad?
do i go over and talk to her after almost a month of completely ghosting her?
fuck it i can't stand her looking like that 'y/n!' i shout walking over to them.. what the fuck ami doing, she looked up and turned her head to face me, i watched as more tears fell down her face, i looked over at jacob, a look of confusion and disgust crossed his face, i got closer and sat next to y/n 'im sorry okay' i said holding her hand 'w-what..?' she asked in disbelief
y/ns pov
i didn't know whether to be happy, or infuriated with billie, the happiness i felt quickly turned into anger, i pulled my hand away and stood up 'sorry?' i asked wiping my face 'you're fucking sorry!?' i shouted looking at her 'i know i fucked up and overreacted but you could've atleast told me you where leaving instead of just disappearing!' i shouted , more tears spilling out of my eyes, she grabbed my arm and pulled me down, i fell into her, billie held me while i sobbed 'O'Connell you better explain what the fuck your doing here after ghosting her for almost a month' jacob said standing infront of us
just as billie was about to speak i looked up at her 'how do you do it?' i asked quietly, she gave me a confused look ' i want to hate you so much... but i can't stop myself from loving you' i added looking into her eyes, i saw tears spill out of them 'please, y/n give me another chance' billie asked her voice cracked 'lets start over' she added
i smiled and wiped away her tears 'yeah, lets start again' before could pull away billie pulled me into a kiss, i smiled and rested my head on her shoulder
'okay i get it you two love each other and i'm single, lets go get food or something' jacob said crossing his arms, i turned around and looked at him 'what?' he asked as i stood up ' that was supposed to be a nice moment you dick' i whined
i felt billie wrap her arms around my waist from behind 'it was a nice moment, you and i are together again'
i wrote this like half asleep last night then slept all day,
hope you liked it loves <3
