tw: mentions of suicide, pills, suicide attempt
achilles come down- lyrics ,where it says achilles it's gunna be replaced with y/n
"just get out y/n" billie shouted slamming the door behind her, i opened it back up "this is my house too billie." i replied standing in the door way "just get the fuck out i don't want to see you right now" billie said facing the wall, i walked out of the house and got in my car and drove to a hotel
that was a week ago, billie hasn't spoke to me or answered my texts since, we had both had a shitty week and we were both stressed and snapped at each other every now then, but billie suddenly started this huge argument shouting about how, i don't do enough for her, i know she was just stressed but it still hurt
my mental health started to spiral a few days before the fight, i kept getting irritated easily and kept having thoughts that, well no one actually wanted me there, and argument just proved that for me, so, now, a week after, in a random hotel, here i am sat writing my letters to everyone.
after i had finished i put them all into a box and stood up, i grabbed the box, my car keys and my phone, my eyes started filling with tears, i sent one quick text to billie, i knew she wouldn't have seen it but it's worth a try, i looked down at my phone as tears welled up in my eyes
i love you billie
i was begging for it to be just seen, but nothing, and with that, i walked out of my room and made my way out of the hotel and to my car, i drove around and found a bridge, luckily not many people used it, so it would be fine, i parked my car and left my phone in there, i got out and brought the box with me, i didn't bother locking my car, i walked over to the bridge and took my shoes off and set them down neatly, as i did with the box, i climbed up the rail and stood on the top
y/n
y/n
y/n come down, won't you
Get up off
Get up off the roof?
i looked behind me too see claudia stood behind me, finneas came running up next to her on the phone, shouting
You're scaring us
And all of us
Some of us love you
y/n, it's not much but there's proof
i turned around and ignored them, but, i couldn't bring myself to do it in front of the, but i don't want to be here anymore, not like this, never like this
You crazy assed cosmonaut
Remember your virtue
Redemption lies plainly in truth
i could hear the voices in my head, telling me to just get on with it, their probably lying anyway
Just humour us
y/n
claudia stepped forward and tried to grab my arm, i stepped forward slightly
y/n come down
Won't you get up off
Get up off the roof
i looked back, my vision blurry from tears, i could see another car pull up next to finneas's
y/n
y/n
y/n come down, won't you
Get up off
Get up off the roof?
i heard billies voice and more tears came flowing down from my eyes
The self is not so weightless
Nor whole and unbroken
Remember the pact of our youth
i turned around to see her walking up behind me, i stepped forward again and stepped ontop the ledge of stone that came after the railings
Where you go
I'm going
So jump and I'm jumping
Since there is no me without you
