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-James pov-

A few drinks later I walk towards Y/N again.
"One dance and you'll never see me again."
With these words I hold out my hand to her.

"Don't make promises you can't keep."
She puts her hand into mine and leads me towards the dance floor.

Just like out last dance it's a slow song. Her left hand lies on my shoulder while her right hand rests in mine. Even though there barely is a gap between us she seems so far away.

It feels like an eternity until I finally find the courage to break the silence.
"You were right."

She mumbles. "Most times, yes."

"The letter."

Now her head tilts up to face me but I can't look at her now.
"How long?"

"Tomorrow is my last night." The answer hurts more when she looks at me.

To my surprise she rests her head on my shoulder.
"When you come back you better bring me some cotton candy."

"What?" I pull away, confused by her words.

"My best friend and I had a lot of talks, James." 
She draws me closer and I can feel how she wraps her arms around my neck.
"If you don't come back I'll have to deal with Steven by my own. We can't avoid each other and I'm tired of fighting with you."

Slowly my hands wander down her to her waist as the music stops.

That's it.. One dance..

As I'm about to take my hands off her she pulls me into a tight hug.
"Can we leave?"
Her voice sounds surprisingly soft and calm. She let's go and takes my hand.

"I don't- I mean I guess we can."
Startled by her reaction I follow her out of the bar.

-Y/Ns pov-

Dancing with James was by far the worst thing I could've done. Everything was fine, I talked with Peggy about it for hours. Moving on, that was the solution we came up with. But one touch and I completely ignore everything we talked about. Even dancing with all the other soldiers didn't help. All I could think about was the dance with James. 

For god's sake, I don't want him to leave! 

Out of breath from pulling James with me I stop at the pier and point at the bench we sit on on our first date. James looks at me, way more confused than I expected.

"You pulled my legs up and put them on your lap. Why?"
I went through this situation with Peggy over and over again. It wasn't just because it's a date. It didn't feel like that was the reason. James doesn't answer, he looks around trying to find an excuse.
"James."
My hand slides into his.
"I don't want to hear an excuse, I want to hear the truth. You might never see me again and I don't know about you, but-"

What are you doing, Y/N? You hate him, why do you want to see him again? Why don't you want him to go?

A sigh leaves my body and I push my hands against his chest, making him stumble back.
"You should've kissed me, James."

His head snaps up but before he can answer I continue.

"But you didn't! And you know what else? You had a date just two days later! Instead of asking me out you just asked someone else! I told Steven I didn't care but I do! I fvcking care! And I fvcking care about you, James!"

Now I talked myself into more and more thoughts, not leaving any time for him to answer.

"If you go and don't come back I will hate myself for never telling you that I- I-"
Not even a deep breath helps me now. My heart races and I'm too mad at myself to continue. Instead I start pacing around like I'm a dog or something.