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-Y/Ns pov-

Tony went inside the house with me and quickly started to explain the facts. Apparently Thor took Loki to Asgard, but somehow he still managed to show up and threaten Tony and Natasha that I will find my way back to the compound and then will kill everyone there. Uncomfortable I shift my weight from one foot to another.

"So I'm not more than a weapon like Jay was?"
My eyes are practically glued to the ground, I can't look at the people I love after Tony just told us I will be their death.

"We will find a way to get that brain washing stuff out of your head, Sleeping Beauty."
Tony places his hand on my head.
"If necessary, Capsicle and Loverboy have a few friends in Wakanda we can ask for help. Until then, one of the boys should stay with you, we need every possible man-"
He stops for a moment, probably thinking about Nat.
"-and woman back in the compound."

Finally I look up, my gaze wandering over the men's faces. Steve gives me a kind smile while Bucky seems to be in his own thoughts. Only Tony gives me a knowing look.

"I'll stay."
My brother speaks up.

"What?"
Confusion spreads inside of me and I furrow my brows.

"Capsicle, we need you, you can't stay."
Stark tries to help.

"Y/N is my sister, I won't leave her alone."

Now Buck picks up on the conversation and carefully steps next to me.
"She won't be alone, Steve."

He frowns.
"You expect me to leave my sister with you? Alone?"

Am I suddenly not capable of making my own decisions?

Taking a step forward I draw my brother's attention to me.
"As a matter of fact, you left me alone with Bucky a lot of times already. Whatever big brother complex you got now, stop it. I'm over thirty years old, stop acting like I'm a child that needs your protection!"

"Y/N-"

"No, Steven!"
His eyes widen at me using his full first name.
"I'll turn thirty-two in a few months. So now you better listen closely to me. I am so done with you being protective over me. I can fight, I can argue, I can say no. I am fully capable of making my own decisions and I would feel safe if I knew that you're at the compound, trying your best to help me out of this mess. Can I count on my big brother's help?"

Unusual for a Stark, Tony takes himself out of the situation. Bucky on the other hand, nods at Steve as a sign that he will do everything to protect our friends. 

The blonde in front of me sighs and finally gives in.
"Fine, I guess Bucky knows the signs and how it feels to be brain washed, so... Just-"
He runs a hand through his hair and looks at the ground.
"I don't want you to get hurt, Y/N. I know I'm late with that but... You were always the stronger one and since you're back in my life I kind of noticed that you're... not as strong as you were back then. You didn't need to be that strong anymore and I- I feel like now that you don't need to protect me anymore, I should protect you. I always should've protected you... I'm your big brother after all."

"Is it so hard to say 'I love you'?"
Gently I pull him into a tight hug.
"Well, I love you too, Stevie. Just don't feel the need to protect me from Bucky. He doesn't hurt me and I highly doubt he would ever be able to hurt me."

Facilitated Steve wraps his arms around me and places a kiss on top of my head.
"Sometimes I forget how old we are."

"I know, Capsicle. Now, go, do your duty. Make me proud."

He smiles at that and lets go of me.
"You start to sound like mom, Y/N."

Scrunching my nose I shake my head.
"Get outta here, old man."

We grin at each other, then Steve follows Tony outside, leaving me with Barnes.

"Old man, huh?"
He shakes his head with a light smile on his face.

"Don't get on my nerves, Jay."
I warn him, he just chuckles.

"I know how to calm your nerves, Love."

There it is again. "Love."

"Hey, did I say something wrong?"
Bucky cups my face with his hands and searches for answers in my eyes.

"What?"
My eyes dart back and forth between his.
"No, no. Don't worry. Just... Love."
His cheeks turn a little bit pink, again a warmth spreads in my chest.
"I like it, Jay. It's just new."

We stay like this for a few moments, gazing into each others eyes, taking in the fact that we'll probably stay in this house for a few months just by ourselves.

Later Tony brought us a few new clothes Nat picked up from a mall, a little bit different than our usual style for "disguise". We thank him and tell him to thank Natasha from us too, already wondering what he meant with that. Over the next few days, Bucky helps me training; we realised I shouldn't have gone on that mission as I never really started to train as an Agent in this century. I have a lot of construction sites to work on, luckily my boyfriend doesn't hesitate to show me. It feels like the speech I gave Steve had an impact on him too. Gladly I accept his tips, taking in the touches when his hands trail over my body to "help me with my posture", his eyes betray him from time to time, showing that he just likes to have me close.