Sugar 『Buckyxfem!reader』

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-Y/N Rogers-

After breakfast I made my way to the graveyard and sat down at Peggy's grave. Unsure what to tell her I picture her sitting on her tombstone. 

I clear my throat and finally start talking to her.
"Well, Peggy... A lot of stuff happened... For example you founded S.H.I.E.L.D. but I bet you knew that, you kinda were there... Uhm, your organisation got infiltrated by Hydra so it's non-existent now but your work was great... J.A.R.V.I.S. told me Howard didn't wake me up because he couldn't do it without Abraham and he, well, died before he was able to get me out. Uhm, what else... Right, do you remember the 'making out session' with James? It was kind of you to not tell anyone what really happened. Well, I mean, I never told you but I guess you just knew... You're you after all..."

I slide over to her tombstone and lean against it.

"Like in the old times I'm kind of here for advice. Or just to talk to you, to be honest. I would talk to Emma, you remember Emma, right? I told you about her before... Anyways, she would tell me to break up with Liam and get back with James... Yes, James is alive too. And he changed... He is hurt, broken... Traumatised. You can see that in his eyes and how he reacts. Also he punched a wall when he got angry so that kinda proves what I said. Liam on the other hand..."

I sniffle and think about him. Just like last night I can feel butterflies, but they're not as excited as yesterday and there are less of them. A feeling of pressure starts to build in my chest.

"Liam really loves me. Like true love-love. His touch still tingles on my skin, you know? And he is so gentle. So forgiving and... way too understanding. I told James that I want to marry Liam, but how I will never love him as much as I love James and we... we kissed. Liam saw us but he wasn't even angry or mad at me. He understood and accepted it."

I keep telling Peggy about what happened and how I feel. For hours I sit next to her tombstone, talking to her.

"That's not all tho..."

I look at her grave. It's time to think about what I shoved back in my mind. Time to apologise.

"Peggy... You and Steven gave me a new home... But when my brother died I thought... I thought I had noone. And I thought I was the only one who lost him, who mourned for him. The only one who needed him. Can you imagine it took me over 75 years to realise that- that it wasn't... Wasn't true? I'm sorry, Peggy... I'm sorry I left you, I'm sorry I ignored how you felt for Steven..."

I look down at my hands.

"You lost him too and I wasn't there to help you. Instead I ran away from the grief. I'm sorry, Peggy. That wasn't fair... I should've been there with you. We should've gone through that together... I was so selfish, Peggy... I'm sorry for everything."

(Meanwhile with Liam)
-Liams pov-

I park the car in front of the Compound and ring the bell. Surprised Y/Ns brother opens the door but before he can say anything I rush into the building. My feet carry me through the rooms until I find James. 

"We need to talk."

Now everyone notices me and James nods. I follow him into one of the meeting rooms and he gets ready to defend himself. I scoff.

"When I say that we need to talk I mean talking, James. Unlike you I normally don't use my strength for that."

He crosses his arms in front of his chest.

"Fine, then I'll start. I love Y/N, probably more than you love her. Right now she's talking to her best friend's tombstone, figuring out what she should do now. If you want her to be happy, maybe you should stay away from her."

Against my expectations James nods in agreement.
"You're right. I'll never be good enough for her. But it wasn't me who approached her, she came to me. And for all that I know she will come back to me again. Because we spend almost our whole life with each other."

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I kinda feel like giving you all written chapters at once but atm I'm not writing new once cause my head draws me to another (unpublished) ff of mine :)
So you'll get different amount of chapters, according to how I feel would be right.
~V