Sugar 『Buckyxfem!reader』

🦋 43 🦋

I really hope that you don't feel like I'm rushing things. I just don't know what I could add in between the weeks. 
~V

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-Y/Ns pov-

"Do you want to volunteer? That's not something you should do. Espacially in your state."
His eyes go up and down over my body.

"Listen, I tried. I swear. I even visited mothers cabin. But there's nothing. And if there is something I get overwhelmed and pass out. That's how I sleep by the way. I'm so tired of not feeling. I'm tired of being me. And you need a volunteer. So I figured-"

"Therapy is not going well then?"
He returns to the blue fluid.

"Going? It's not even moving for an inch. It's like I'm trapped in a circle. Every week the god damn same questions and the same answers."

"I know, I read the notes."
Abraham sighs and nods.
"Fine, I'll walk you through the process and you decide if you want to volunteer. But before we do that I need your help with the serum."

"Shouldn't you be done by now?"
Concerned I look around and notice that everything's a mess.

"Colonel Phillips wants a 'better' version, so I'm changing the formular."

"Steven already defeated Hydra, we don't need more super soldiers."
I cross my arms in front of my chest when Howard enters.

"He's a Colonel after all. Do you really think he would give up the advantage?"
Stark smiles and winks at me.

As an answer to his attempt to flirt with me I roll my eyes.
"Well, not using your brain seems to be something very common for men. That doesn't count for you, Abraham. You're one of a few."

"Alright, Agent Rogers, can you pass me the fluid on your right?"
Dr. Erskine points at it.

Careful I hand him the flask.

"Maybe you should change the therapist if she doesn't help?"

"Or I try something new?"

Abraham sighs. I can be charming if I want to but that doesn't affect him. He's so done with me and you can hear it.
"Alright, follow me."

Again I smile and follow him into another part of the lab. Stark returns to his work, well knowing what we are talking about. Erskine starts explaining everything to me, he points at a misty fluid in a syringe, then at a stasis capsule. I try to follow him as he explains how the fluid will affect my body, that I will get shock freezed and that they will definitely wake me up after two weeks. The last part even changes into a promise.

I sigh and start to repeat what he said.
"Okay, I get this medication, that will sort of help with stoping everything inside of my body."
I point at a syringe with the misty fluid in it.
"While my body shuts down I will be in that thing"
I point at a stasis capsule.
"And when you activate it, it will freeze me. But you'll wake me up in two weeks?"

"That's the easy version, yes."
Abraham nods.
"You should talk with your therapist about this first."

"Or we could do that tomorrow."

"What?"

I smile at him.
"Please? I don't have anyone anyways and I'm tired. Two weeks of sleep, you'll be around and so will Stark. What could go wrong?"

"Everything. What if Dooley needs you on a mission?"
He crosses his arms in front of his chest. I answer him with a look on my face that tells him that I don't care.
"So I don't really have a choice?"

"Not if you can already use it."

"Fine. Two weeks, not more."

With a winning grin I turn around and leave the building. Maybe I can use the time to connect with James and Steven? It sounds dumb but a little spark of hope lights up inside of me just by thinking about the possibility. In my apartment I change into something more comfortable and take a picture of Steven and James from my desk. Carefully I remove it from the frame and place it in my badge. The rest of the day is filled with cleaning, writing a note, throwing up again, forcing myself to eat something and finally going to bed. Today is the first time this whole week I actually fall asleep.

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Do you have anything I could do better? If yes I'm always happy about constructive criticism! Or are you "happy" how this story goes on?
If I made you cry, thank you, I accomplished something I thought I would never be able to do.
Love you tons. ❤️
~V