My mother said that being inlove is the most precious thing that woman can feel, she said it feels like a you're in a cloud 9. But for me love is not always being in a cloud 9 or being happy, love for me is indescribable, you cannot describe the feeling. Love is commitment, Love is equality, you need to respect your partner in any circumstances.
I don't feel that kind of love that my mother always tell me. My kind of love is always scary and terrifying. Who knows what will happen if someone knows about our feelings to each other. It may cause chaos to our family.
Eve ate the forbidden fruit even if God told them not to eat it. Maybe because of the temptation. There are many things that are forbidden in this world, like forbidden love. I live in a very religious family where we always pray and go to church. There's no room for sins.
They say that forbidden love provides happiness when there is no happiness. Sino ang may ayaw ng kasiyahan? But when I saw him in the first time, I felt like I am being captivated by his grey eyes. He's broad shoulder makes him more manlier, he's pointed nose, pinkish lips that look so soft.
"Eritrea, this is you Tito Lucho, he's going to be your father now." I get back to my senses when my mother spoke. I awkwardly smiled at the old man infront of me. "Nice to meet you po!" magalang kong sabi ko. He gave me a genuine smile.
My mother married tito Lucho 5 years after my father died, it's fine with me because all I want is my mother's happiness. I accidentally look at the man with hypnotizing grey eyes. My heart stop beating when our eyes met. "This are my son, Permion" sabi ni Tito Luch sabay turo sa lalaking may kasing itim ng gabi na mga mata. He looks like the other man but more friendly look.
"And this is Permian, they are twins so you might get confuse." sabi ni Tito kaya tumawa si mama, nakita kong tumawa din si Permion. Pagkatapos nun ay agad kaming pumasok sa loob dahil may hinanda daw sila para saamin. Their mansion looks bigger than our house. Umupo kami sa dining table. Nasa sentro ng lames si Tito Lucho habang nasa tabi nito si mama na katabi ko din, si Permion naman ay katapat ni mama habang si Permian naman ay katapat ko.
Nag dasal muna kami bago mag simulang kumain. "My Eritrea here is only 15 years old but she knows how to serve the church." may bahid ng pagiging proud sa boses ni mama. I smiled at them. "Do you want to be a nun, Eritrea?" napatingin ako kay Tito Lucho nang itanong nya iyon. "She's too beautiful to be a nun, papa" nakangiting sabi ni Permian. "You' re right, but we'll support whatever you want." napatango ako dahil sa sinabi ni Tito Lucho.
At the age of 15 years old, I already felt nervous when the serious twin is around. Having something forbidden is exciting, right? Forbidden love is like a poisoned bread, its taste good but at the end it will cause you suffering or worst death.
I'm just like Eve, I enjoy the forbidden fruit. While forbidden fruit taste more sweeter but its spoils the faster and scarier.
A/N: this is the prologue of The Engineer I hope you still support it. Thank you!
