Remember

Dean

I couldn't stop myself. There was only one way I could stop drowning in Castiel's brilliant blue eyes. Suddenly, my movement was controlled by something else that wasn't me.

'This is crazy!' I yelled in my head. 'It's Cas. Your friend. A guy! I like girls!' I tried convincing myself over and over. It didn't work. It didn't work yesterday, or the day before that. Right before our lips met I finally admitted it to myself. 'I'm falling in love. With Cas.'

I closed my eyes expecting to meet his lips. The lips I had dreamed about at night. Instead, I fell forward into an empty seat. I looked around searching for him. He was no where.
"Cas!" I yelled out. "Cas! Where are you? I'm sorry! I didn't mean to! Come back! Please?" A sudden pain swept through me. Where was he?

I thought of the only way I knew how to cope and grabbed my keys. Getting in the Impala I slammed on the pedal peeling out of the driveway. I drove dangerously fast all the way to my destination.

I arrived parking far in the back so no one would guess I was where I was this early in the day. Approaching the building, the smell of alcohol and sweat poured out. 'I haven't been here in a really long time.' I thought to myself. I entered having a sudden onslaught of loud music surprise me a little bit. It felt good to be back. I approached the bar watching the scantily clad women dance and slither around the poles.
"You're here very early." The women behind the bar said, getting my attention.
"You know what they say. The early bird gets the worm."
"Usually guys like you only come here this early after a heartbreak. What happened?"
"Nothing that matters. But I think I see what can put me back together." I smirked looking her up and down.
"Charming." She said sarcastically.
"I don't need to be. I know you think I look better than pie." I smirked at her.
"Someone's got an inflated ego!" She laughed. "How 'bout you come help with some boxes in the back?"
"It'd be my pleasure."