Easy Mistake ; Harry Potter

O N E H U N D R E D A N D T H I R T Y T W O | In Another Life

Dear the boy with giant news, (get it?)

How's things been at Hogwarts? How is Hagrid? How are things with him, is he well? Is he managing to look after every creature, or have you had to help him yet?

I'm sure you're aware, because if Hogwarts is anything like my school, you would have had it drilled into your head. It's now June, and therefore exam season is upon us at last.

When I tell you I'm dreading it, Harry, I constantly have a sick feeling in my stomach. What if I do bad?

But I can't think like that. My parents tell me to try not to worry, but its hard. Our entire futures lie in these exams.

...Anyway, going back on to what you said in your previous letter. I'm glad Ron has decided to pursue Quidditch and I'm glad that you've always believed in him. It's hard not thinking you're good enough, and it's nice to be reminded that in fact you are good enough. You're a good friend Harry. I'm glad Ron has gained more confidence though, and despite the Slytherins new song, I'm glad Ron was able to play well.

It probably sounds silly to worry over trivial things such as exams when there is a war pending, and threatening to destroy our lives at any given moment, but in truth I like the distraction. I'm sure you do too. I'm sure in small ways you try to ignore the fact the war is coming, and I do that too. I choose to worry over little things such as exams, and homework, and what to wear to school, and what hairstyle to do on what day, to distract myself from the bigger problems going on in the world.

If I didn't do this, I honestly think I would go insane. Its been worrying me more and more lately though. It creeps into my head when I'm trying to sleep, it's the first thing I think of as I wake up. I don't know how this sounds, it could sound like I'm being completely paranoid but I hate how calm everything is. We all have to go about our day knowing something bigger is conspiring. It's maddening honestly.

And I feel like it's getting closer. I know I said everything is calm, but that's what's putting me on edge. When I first came here, it was with urgency, we made a plan. To stay here and keep safe. But you haven't had a nightmare about me since then. There hasn't been anymore break outs from Azkaban for weeks and people haven't been going missing.