05 May 2021 Wednesday
810PM-846PM(writing time)(didnt write the whole time)
Dear future Soham,
Ive becoming sad again, Ive gotten into depression. Im sad about how I don't have any bestfriends anymore. Sad about whats become of happy me. Sad about what I'm going to do further. Im sad that my bestfriends only ignore me now. They don't talk to me. We go on 4 days and 5 days without a word in the group chat, Im sad that I spend more then 2 and a half hours on Instagram yesterday. I just looked up what deppression means and I guess I match the thing. Im sad, I don't feel to good, I feel ignored, I feel sadder than anything, My sad ass wants to cry. I have removed my pfp from Instagram, I've changed my bio to "this guy is in depression, his bestfriends have found better bestfriends", I have archived all my posts. I think I'm gonna change my bio to be blank.My eyes are sobbing as I archive each post. I want to know what my life was back in October. I wanna know why my comment section was filled. I wanna know how I had so many friends. I wanna know whats up with me. I want to know what was up with me then. I am clueless of life as we speak. I want to know how many ex bestfriends have so many friends. i want to know my reaso for smiling in all these ig photos I'm delting slowly and slowly. I don't understand what I'm supposed to do. Im clueless. Idk what to do.
woke up late, classes, guitar for an hour, lil book reading, wasting a lot of time on Instagram, making pasta, writing this, try to study
Soham
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