Sohams personal Diary

Sohams everyday diary! June04

04 June 2021  Friday(writing day)

931PM-956PM(writing time)

                                                   Im scared; I'm going to fail the HRT

Dear future Soham,

So, yes, again the title is back to the original one coz after writing bout it yesterday I realised that it will create competition in all my daily writings and one will get more attention than others and I bet that the one yesterday is going to blow up and have the most reads and I do not want to attract anyone to that sort of idea, but I will still write the title; just before my name so it sounds like a full-blown book. Last night I was studying till 1 and then I watched videos on youtube with the thought process of watching only for 10 mins which slowly got extended to an hour. Before sleeping I put this post-it on my door handle so that when they try to wake me up for exercising I would be woken up. But it's really hard to wake me up and I was sleeping till 930. Once I got up, I made it a point to study physics quickly, I sat on my bed and read straight for an hour and finished the reading. I had to eat breakfast, I grabbed the idlis, put some podi chutney with them and a black coffee, I wanted to watch Netflix but the nuclear option didn't permit that, so what I did was I watched it on my phone. I was continuing "the Italian job" and there is this movie called "players" in Bollywood which is a whole fully-fledged copy of "the Italian job"; from names, to story, to cars, to even the ending, Jesus, I hate Bollywood so much, they steal ideas from Tollywood/Kollywood and Hollywood and make a version of them, this is disgusting. And the fact that they don't even give credits and there had been an event with the PM of India which I had watched and there were no south Indian actors were so fucking bad and disgusting. UGH, I HATE BOLLYWOOD.  At 11:30 I started studying bio, bio took a lot of time, it was as if time was going super fast and then occasionally pausing and my speed on bio was so slow for what? i really don't know. After bio I ate lunch and then watched and finished Italian job, I wasn't able to start studying till 4:30, something was just delaying it continuously, but I made my mind and I started reading chemistry and the weather was so good, it was the rain breeze minus the rain and I sat on the terrace listening to a little funky music and reading it all up! Then we, me and divyam and dad played ludo, FUN. Can't remember what I did after that, I made momos, ate them, scrolled my phone, watched youtube, finished some bio questions. Ok now there was this exam on Vidyamandir's site which I cant find and I think it's expired and I'm sad. And also; I'm going to fail, 0 cap; I am going to fail; I don't know shit, I can hardly do those numericals, I don't know what to do; imma fail; I'm scared

PS: funny thing is; I said I would write my longest letter yet when I woke up

Soham