Sohams personal Diary

Sohams everyday diary!

02 May 2021  Sunday

1008PM-1030PM (writing time)

Dear future Soham,

Good morning, good evening, or good afternoon, or if you're almost going to sleep....good night my lovely lovely folks! The weekend's almost done here, and schools back on from the weekday tomorrow! I got up today at 5 30 ish! I got to read some physics and then exercise! We did the session which had dumbells in it and it was a painful one...not a lot of pain but yes a little. Oh yeah and the second I woke up one thing was on my mind; GUILT. I am so so so so sorry for making yesterdays diary entry short...I could have done it I could have written a thousand words but I chose not to which disappoints me the most. The whole point of writing every day is to make sure that I have a memory of what my life was like then when I'm older. And not writing a whole day down is like not knowing what u did for one day of your life. Jeez, the drama. Anyways...when I had finished exercise it was about 8 ish and I said to myself..."Soham, your gonna be sleeping at 12; and before that, you have 16 hours...16 hours to do something...in 16 hours what can not be done if you push yourself...imagine what you could do" And yeah that bull shit didn't work. Immediately wasted time. I had just 4 goals today and I only finished one...I left the other 3 hanging. I wrote my Hindi notes. I didn't b=practice the guitar for 2 hours. I didn't finish reading the physics chap. I didn't finish all the exercise on the Number System chapter in maths. I feel ashamed. We watched Inception too today! It was a good movie but it wasn't great. It was cool and all but I didn't like it as much as interstellar. I don't know- it's just something I didn't like in the plot of that movie. I remember a week or 2 ago; actually, 2 weeks ago I would try and make myself busy. I would do things at such a point that I didn't feel hungry anymore. But that version of me is dead....I don't study all that much. I am not focusing on my studies. I end up watching a movie every day which is really really bad. I feel kinda bad. So imma stop watching TV, start writing notes, and start studying. There are places I wanna be. And that will take work. I need to put in that stuff. Pretty much didn't do much today. It's 10 27 as I type this letter and I want to sleep. I want to wake up and study. Ok gn yall! Love ya <3

PS: I JUST SAW THAT THERE ARE A TOTAL OF 65 VIEWERS. OH MY FUCKING GOD.

Soham