Sohams personal Diary

Soham's everyday diary! 1June'22

01 June 2022 Wednesday

752pm-928pm

Dear Future Soham,

Oh god...I love school. It's been going great; I have a ton of fun, I study and have such a great time...I don't think I've laughed so much in the past year. Getting back into a classroom and studying with other children with a teacher up there has this magic which makes you focus on what's going on. The guy who sits left of me is Pranay, he was with me in 4th and 5th and was my bestie back then. The girl who sits behind me, She's been in the school from Nursery and so have I but haven't ever seen her...she's Ayushi and I love her energy and vibe. She gets bored in class and starts typing on my back as though it's a keyboard and we have fun and I talk to her. The guy who sits to my back left side corner is Animesh, one of the smartest guys in the grade now turned non-nerd and we have fun with him too. Ayushi and Pranay know each other from before so they keep pulling mischievous on one other and it's entertaining. There's this guy called Prajwal who's been with me in 7th and the guy makes sexual jokes only. That's it for him and that he is smart and funny. Then there's Nachiket, who has been with me since 7th and is here now. He was my bestie and perhaps still is I don't know what to say about him. The guy has so many friends that he can just dip, but he's a great guy to be next to. During Short and Lunch breaks and while going back to the bus yard, Nachiket and I go to meet the other guys, Yuvam, Animesh, Saanvi, Soumya, Sparsh, Manas. When I don't find them, I chat up with someone else. Lately, Sparsh and Soumya have been getting to know 2 girls in their class and avoiding us which is super frustrating cause I don't know them and when they tried to introduce them to me, they ran away. So I'm frustrated these guys are ditching us and hanging out with other people and that's why I'm trying to broaden my friends' connection because getting deserted by my best friends has happened a few times before. Actually Yuvam and Animesh were in Soumya and Sparsh's class in 7th, and I hated them hanging out with Yuvam and Animesh so so much but now I consider Yuvam and Animesh as some of my greatest friends so maybe I'm just going through a phase. Moving on, On the Bus these days we play music to and fro school. One of the guys called Srijan has been getting his speakers, Simran gets her phone and then there's Pihu too. We 4 have been sitting on the very last seat of the bus. Sachi hasn't been coming cause she's out on vacay. Songs are a great way to pass time and then Pihu and I start to sing and get such cold looks from everyone around. It's funny.

Today getting onto the bus I thought, awesome it's another day of school and when I got onto it for coming back home I said, school got over like that and then I snapped my fingers. Some teachers are boring but then some are here to also have fun. I think it's important to answer in class and do the things because I read a book once and the author said that the teacher should know that you're trying. If she knows your doing the hard work the human side of her will kick in and get you some marks. So  I try answering in class and helping others. Ayushi recently started calling me a nerd and I avoid even listening to her say that cause it sucks to hear that word and if I stop caring about it, she should automatically stop. At the same time I try to be super fun. I talk to everyone, I crack jokes and I laugh. I laugh so much.

The uniform is not here yet and it's the same case with other students and so we're wearing other clothes. During the lockdown, I had a realisation that it's important to dress to impress. A proper fashion sense just elevates your respect in someone's eyes. I try to dress pretty and good looking, all the clothes I didn't wear in a couple of months are now getting used one by one. I try to compliment others on their clothes, and one of the guys; Nilay...I said to him dope tshirt man, I love the colour and he responds, "You say that while wearing the sickest t-shirt ever". That just made me smile.

2 days ago- 530, yesterday-430, today-530am the institute that I go to VMC(VidyaMandir Classes) and is online. I had a test yesterday evening and my dad has really been pushing me to get a good score on that and hence I've been studying. But while taking the exam yesterday, out of the total 3 hours I was crying for 1. I was defeated. The test was harsh. I did 40 out of the 80 total on my own, and couldn't do the rest half of it. When dad saw me crying he rushed to see what happened and then mom rushed in and then he talked to me and then we solved 20 questions together and time ran out and I had to submit it. The result comes out in a few days, let's see what happens. 

Girls. I think it's time. I need to get a girlfriend. In 7th, Sparsh got a girl and Saanvi got a boy and I was so mad at them because I thought it was wrong to date. That if you do it your sinning. But now I think it's imperative. There's this girl; Amogha. She was in my class in LKG and in 3rd and I used to like her and she used to like me. She even sent me some notes in 6th but because of my thought process back then, I just tore them to pieces without reading them. I hope they were notes of the fact that she liked me...! I've always had a thing for her but nothing ever took place between us except that whenever I saw her I tried moving out without interacting with her. Last Friday I wanted to say a casual Hi to her and ask her how's it going. I am a very socially extroverted person who is not scared to talk to anyone but her. OH MY GOD. I tried to say hi but I just backed out. I have been giving myself prep speeches since Friday. I had an impeccable opportunity on Monday but I didn't do it. I had a splendid opportunity yesterday but I couldn't muster up the courage. But while reaching my bus to go home yesterday...I saw her standing close to my bus and it was the perfect opportunity and I took it without thinking. I said Hi Amogha, How's it going and I could see it was weird for her. I told her, "I've been meaning to say Hi the past couple of days, but something just kept coming up." and she said she'd been trying to say Hi too. Her friend who I happened to know who she was waiting for came down and I started to talk to them and I couldn't look at Amogha. I don't know what happened. I said bye to them and felt so happy I got this off because it was really infuriating to me that I couldn't say a polite hello. And I saw her again today and just waved my hand up in the air indicating a hello and she did it back, So now the tension is off between us and that feels awesome.

Ayushi has been dating this guy for a while and so I asked her what I do. First, she bit my head off asking who the hell the girl is, and when I told her she didn't know. But then I asked how she kicked her date and she told me about that and I asked her ample questions. Then I asked her how do I do things with Amogha and she said just ask her if she wants to take a walk in the short break every few days. And then I asked should I slide into her DMs on Instagram today and then take the walk tomorrow. That was the plan, set in stone. But I couldn't locate her account on Instagram today so I got to ask Ayushi what to do tomorrow. See I think I like her. And also she's the first girl I've liked...I've liked her since 3rd and I feel I have a connection. Let's see how this plays out...I'm pumped up for this. Let's get a girlfriend.

Yours lovingly,

Soham