Sohams personal Diary

Soham's weekly diary! 22September'22

22 September 2022, Thursday

927pm-949pm

Dear future Soham,

Exams have finally wrapped. I should start relaxing. But I already know I hadn't worked to my full abilities. I could've studied and absolutely obliterated my exams, but I did not. I haven't gotten even a single correct answer script back yet. But I already know that I won't be getting good marks. 

So I am not taking a break. I have started my studies today for my Pre-Board exams, which are to be held in December in the first week. This gives me around 45-50 days to prepare for them. We will have every chapter of every book of every subject coming as portions. If ten chapters of Social Science had me scared the way they did, I wonder what a whopping twenty-six would do to me. 15 in Science, 14 in Mathematics, and approximately a billion in Hindi and English each. But I am not looking at the portion, I am just studying. I will just study what and how much I can. My excuses have been exhausted, I used to study for my Mom, and recently for my dad. But the time pass is finished, I study for myself now. 

If done properly, this journey of two months will be advantageous to my immediate future. It will allow stress-free 2 months after that. My Board examination will take place in the second week of February of 2023. If I can grasp all knowledge, in the next 60 days. Then I will only need to revise and toughen the walls of remembrance and recall.

I plan to-

I want to-

I need to change my lifestyle. I have grown fat, weak, addicted to a rectangle of sensors, a red pause button and whatnot. This stops now. I have a lot of tasks at hand. Including the play at my drama school for which I am production manager. We have a task to continue our last year's performance and maintain a legacy. It comes at the price of giving it undivided attention. I am willing to give it. But it should be a different division from my studies. I want to deserve to attend the practice for the play. I deserve to if I study. 

For fixing my body, I need to play Squash with my dad and go for runs. I do not intend to gain any muscle, just a fit body.

For fixing my mind, two things. First of all completely not using my phone. None of the toppers in my class has an Instagram account. Out of those 4 people, none. If getting excellent marks requires the simple deposition of a box of sensors. I am motivated to give my phone away. I will keep my usage to a bare bare minimum. Only use it when felt necessary.

Secondly, I should start meditating again. It's a fine concept. I had tried once, but could not keep up. I need to get back on that too.

Finally, sleep. No more sleeping 2-3 hours late. I have a fixed schedule and will follow the same. I want to wake up early and study neatly. Do my playing and my meditating then and there. Calmly and blissfully restart a day.

Saying that No more missing Wattpad writing days, I want my full journal of life to be maintained. I need to start writing more, it allows me to get more real with myself and my life.

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I wanted to include school life lately.

I thoroughly love my classmates and my whole class.

I have the time of my life in class. It's a blessing to be alive and around all these people that I can call friends.

Prajwal, Ayushi, Nachiket, Pranay, Zarin, Swara, Nilay, Souvik, Akshiti, Harshit, Arth, Anusha, Soumya, Yuvam, Amogha, Pihu, Stuti and how many more I do not know. I am so grateful for this time of my life. Thank you life.

10-year-old Soham would be ecstatic.

Yours truly,

Soham

Thank you