Sohams personal Diary

Sohams everyday diary! May29

29 May 2021  Saturday                                                                    (writing day)

909PM-954PM                                                                                          (writing time)

Dear future Soham,

Hiiiiiiiii, heyy, whats up? You doing good? Glad to hear! And if not, it's gonna be alright! And I love you xoxo! Yep, woke up to writing yesterdays diary and that was it. Before getting into studying I thought to make a small broad timetable for the next week, coz exactly in a week I have Vidyamandir Exams, and boy I gotta study hard for them. So I quickly made a timetable with 3 things to do the whole day and I didn't even write for the whole week, I wrote for like 4 days😶😶 I got studying into Polynomials, and Polynomials was basically the only thing I had to do today. I don't know shit in polynomials and I really really need to do that subject. I have basically like 5 textbooks and places from which I have to learn maths and so I'm doomed. I studied for 45 or 50 mins. Then I did the usual time waste but today for 5 hours. I just checked my phones app for time usage and it says that I only used my phone for 1 hour in those 5 hours...WHERE ON MARS DID THE REST GO. FOR CHRIST SAKE. I got into the zone at 3, for 30 mins and right after that, I did the hell out of studying for an hour straight. I mean total productiveness and then..dat 6 30, but this time approx. half an hour. OH HELL, THE HELL YEAH. I think I had around 4 black coffees today. Oh yeah...now I remember where those 5 hours (technically 4) went...We ordered some food, and I was watching Monsters University with it, I had watched the Inc. and half of the Uni alone but all the other members of my fam joined in with me, AND BOOY (or girl or non-binary) UNI>INC. Uni was such a much better movie than Inc, and oH Hell YEah. LOVED IT.  We continued the matrix after finishing monsters University and yes, I can totally see why people are fucking confused with the goddam fuckin movie. Like for me, it felt like Inception all over again. I think the general concept of Inception was in The Matrix too, also tell me if u say "(mate)rix" or "ma(d)trix" the d is for completing mad, so do u say Materix or do u say MAT as in rug Tix. My mom says the second one and me the first so I wanna know from you :). I watched an episode on Luck and probability on curiositystream, It was pretty dope. I was deep into the roots. The one I watched was soo good, that during dinner I was finishing another one I had started soon after the luck doc had finished, this one was on the joy of Winning on curiositystream only. Mom also joined in and in between, I had to call my grandparents on my dad's side, I had finished dinner at the same time and it blended in almost too well and we had a nice chat, I talked to both and it was a fun little chat! They told me to call them every other day, and fingers crossed I don't forget. I have to finish the  Winning one coz the ending part, mom watched it alone. Mom also was really anxious 20 mins ago, she asked me to make tea and she was tired, but she was still cleaning up. THIS IS WHAT I HATE. U ask me to make tea coz you tired, but on the other side of the spectrum, you also wanna clean the goddammit house, for fucks sake just go take a fucking nap or something. Really pisses the shit out of me. I mean the boiling anger in me coz all she was doing was putting food back into the fridge, the table and the fridge are like 50 cm apart and the fridge gets and the stove 60 cm apart. Like you could've made tea right there, all by yourself, or you could've said it to your younger kid who knows how to make tea. But no, tell me and me only. FFS. I made a wild thought discovery today' i said, why not do the 3 extracurriculars in the morning, as in at 4 30. It blends in just too well. Like I get up at 4 30. And 3 activities would take 3 hours giving one hour each and at the end, I'm left with exercise to do with everyone else, And it's perfect. Throughout the day, I'm tensed that I won't be able to do my extracurricular which are guitar, reading and learning Spanish but if I do them in the morning I get it off that problem so easy it's BLISS. That is just so perfect to fi tin. Oh also I opened my second candle today, I realised that the green one had gone through many surgeries and I decide to get out the purple coloured aka Lavender scented candle...WHAT A THING. It burns so beautifully, oh I could get lost in its beauty for what it's worth, Gorgeous, but you know what else is gorgeous? 'Leave the door open' I heard it for 1 and a half hour straight on repeat non-stop, such a fine song, it's so so so good, it's brilliant. I must've heard it like 35 times on repeat and I watched both Bruno and Anderson perform at the I heart music awards on youtube, I didn't know bout the event and I watched the recording, Bruno mars was so romantic to a stranger, he touched her hand, invited her to stand, she didn't he placed her hand on his heart and oh my Jesus, that was soo soo romantic. Im inspired, wowwww! Today at points of intervals, I was looking into the mirror and admiring myself, I felt like I was shining, my eyes looked beautiful, the circles below them looked awesome, I felt really pretty too! Loved it! Today was an amazing day!

Soham